meaningful, good advice ....
do read if u have the patience :)
Each one of us are like small tiny little sailboats in the big wide ocean of human relationships.
At some point in our life, after probably suriving some terrible stormy relationships, we get tired and would like to find a safe habour to take refuge. Some may find this habour early in their life, some later, some not at all, either by choice or otherwise.
And every time we find a new habour, some take one look and sail on in search of a better one, but some would stay behind longer. Initially, everything on the island would be hunky dory, i.e., new, exciting, fun and u simply love every minute of it. In some cases, it is just too good to believe its true. In this new found place u call home, u work hard to know the place, the people behind it, the weather, the enviroment and even may even begin to think u never want to leave this place ever again.
But unfortunately, over time, u slowly begin to realise that thismay not be an ideal place to rest after all (perhaps due to many varied reasonssuch as; can't get along with the other people already living on the island, the very unpredictable weather of e island, the hash living conditions u keep having to put up with, etc. etc. etc.). You feel as if somehow, the island and safe habour has changed over time, and is now no longer the one it used to be when u first arrived... What would u do? or what should u do?
Some people, being too comfortable where they are, simply put up with it, hoping that one day things will change for the better. Some people put up with it simply becos of the great fear of getting hurt again back in the open ocean of uncertainty. But there are also some who, after trying their level best to fit in, would pick up their sail and leave this otherwise comfortable habour they once called home and set sail again into the unknown to find the place they initially started out looking for...
I do not believe I could tell you which is the best path to follow given your situation and experiences. You and only u yourself can decide the path u wish to take and will have to live through that path.
For those who found the courage to pick up their tiny little sailboats and set sail again into the open ocean, may you find the land u would eventually call home now that u leave the comfort of that once so familiar seashore.
And while u are out there; Believe in yourself and NEVER look back as your future may lie far far beyond that horizon u were once so used to. Remind yourself that u may fail if u try, but u will NEVER succeed if u don't...
Seek, and u shall find...