:: fade to oblivion ::

2011-01-15T10:55:00.001+08:00

Haven't blogged in a long time. I don't know, just haven't really felt the need to.
Am thinking of closing it down. Or perhaps I'll just private the whole thing and keep it here just for memories sake (look back at old entries and laugh and my own stupidity) :/

We'll see.
Aussie thing still not settled yet. Sigh.

2010-10-06T15:47:00.001+08:00

been sitting here in a daze for the past 45 minutes.
having difficulty breathing.
am so happy i could die.

thank you God for giving me the golden ticket.. to freedom.

2010-08-25T09:13:00.002+08:00

i am honestly very tired of my life.
counting down to december, where hopefully things will change for the better.

2010-08-10T22:20:00.002+08:00

The truth is:

I ignored you cos I have nothing to say to you anymore.
I'm sorry, but I just don't have the energy to deal with your shit.

2010-07-13T09:47:00.002+08:00

Back from NZ and it has been a whirlwind at work ever since. Am out of office almost every single day, which I guess is a good thing cos it helps me ease back into the office environment after a much needed 1 week break. Time also passes faster. Already I am looking forward to the weekend!!

Facebook photo uploader has been giving me hell so I'm forced to upload holiday pictures in small batches. Hopefully will be done by tmr.

Still suffering from some jet lag, I find myself waking up abruptly at 4am ever since I got back. While in NZ I only had about 5-6hrs of sleep or sometimes less each day, cos every morning I had to wake up early for breakfast at 6.30am and then catch the tour bus for whatever sightseeing was planned for the day. Although NZ is only 4hrs ahead of NZ time, it still screwed up my body clock quite badly, cos already I have been sleeping at uneven hours. Oh well.

Did not shop much in NZ although they had cool clothing stores and it was the sale period. Couldn't find anything I liked except a black military jacket going for NZ$30 (original price $69.90), which I eventually put back cos one of the buttons had dropped off and it was the last piece. I regret not buying it now!!! Bought mostly souvenirs, but am happy with those. Also bought a cool rainbow coloured sweater by a NZ designer.

Am finally going to watch Eclipse on Weds, I'm sure all the hype has died down by now. If I'm still unable to get seats then I really have nothing to say.

A lot of nice movies coming out/out already in July, for e.g. Despicable Me and The Sorcerer's Apprentice. Problem is I don't have time to watch argh!!

Back to reality, folks.

2010-06-19T17:42:00.002+08:00

2 pairs of jeans
1 winter jacket
2 cashmere woolen pullovers
1 pair of leather gloves
1 pair of winter boots

.. and i am done with my winter wear shopping and all set for the NZ trip in 2 weeks time!!

excited!! time faster pass!!!

2010-06-13T22:54:00.002+08:00

as much as people like to bash social networking sites like facebook, i for one am thankful for it.

a few months ago, my ex best friend/neighbour from primary school found me through facebook.

just today, an old childhood friend from australia found me and contacted me through facebook again. we were best friends in kindergarten when i was in australia. he's coming over to singapore soon and we're planning to meet up.

after all this time...... i really marvel at the wonders of technology and how it can bring people together.

writing about this is making me very emotional, because these people were once really important in my life, but we drifted apart and i thought i'd never see them again.

guess i was wrong :)

2010-06-11T11:56:00.001+08:00

mostly i just feel dead inside
and i think the real reason why i so badly want to go for a holiday is because its the only (temporary) way i know how to escape from my life

2010-06-06T10:24:00.001+08:00

as of today, i think i officially give up on flea markets.
next time i am at one, it shall be as a buyer and not as a seller!

GRRRR.

!@&#&*!&#*$**!&@!

P.S. Need more work clothes. But cupboard no space!!! SOBZ

2010-06-04T13:59:00.001+08:00

after all these years i finally have the courage to admit to myself that this ain't right.
but whether i have the courage to do something about it is another thing.

God give me strength...

2010-05-30T10:09:00.000+08:00

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
Thanks auddie for arranging :)

2010-05-29T16:09:00.001+08:00

how i am spending my long weekend:

1. reading
2. watching tv
3. surfing the net
4. submitting more uni applications

finally have some time to myself and am loving it!
although GSS has started, will resist from shopping till i manage to sell some of my clothes away. plus the weather is so hot, i much rather stay holed up in my air con room -_-

2010-05-20T21:30:00.002+08:00

10 months into my job, and every day i realize the importance of doing something you love, and are passionate about.

because the initial excitement, the novelty of a whole new job, new environment, will die down in 2-3 months. 6 months max.

i may not know exactly what i want now, but at least i know what i don't want. i can only hope that i will be given the opportunity to pursue my dreams.

oh all you fresh grads, you're so starry eyed, so optimistic about your new jobs. i'd hate to burst your bubble. but will you still feel that way 1 year later? only time will tell..

2010-05-05T09:47:00.000+08:00

back from batam ...

and even more tired and stressed than ever.

damn.

2010-04-30T22:12:00.001+08:00

busy busy week.

no time to breathe.

amidst all the hustle and bustle, am taking a step back and heading to batam for the weekend.

i can't change my (f**ked up) life, so a change of scenery instead will have to do for now.

ciao!

2010-04-21T15:36:00.001+08:00

somewhere along the way,
i forgot what it felt like to be happy.

now i'm just lost, tired, depressed, and going through the motions day by day.

save me..

2010-04-09T23:32:00.002+08:00

im not one to get all preachy and religious, but God really works in mysterious ways.

as you probably know i have been feeling like crap for awhile.. but in his own subtle ways, God let me know i wasnt alone.

no, it doesn't solve the problem. but i know he's looking out for me all the same, and i hope soon all of this will make sense.

2010-04-04T20:14:00.002+08:00

spent friday and saturday basically catching up on much needed hours of sleep. only went out today.

i swear, we should have a 4 day work week, 3 day weekend.

i am feeling much more rejuvenated although am dreading going back to office tmr.

feeling a sudden urge for some retail therapy at my beloved far east plaza, which i havent been for awhile. perhaps i shall go during one of my lunch breaks, although won't have much time to shop. still better than nothing i guess..

2010-03-29T08:44:00.003+08:00

havent been updating often, because mostly everyday is just the same.

9 more months of this.

i don't think i can take it, but its not like i really have a choice.

since i only have 7 days leave, have decided that i'll take no pay leave if need be.

am planning to go for a short family holiday, probably about a week, either australia or new zealand. i just really need to get away for awhile.

nothing really seems to cheer me up anymore, not shopping, not nice 3D movies, not comfort food, not anything.

someone told me that when you're working, unless you're doing something you like, you're gonna be depressed all the time. and its true!! i am somewhat depressed 90% of the time.

sigh!

i used to love this job, not so much because of my job scope, but more so because of the environment and the nice people. but with time i realize that much of what i thought was really a facade.. there is politics, gossip, bad mouthing, even backstabbing.

yes i know its all part of working life. i just wish i knew this was coming earlier.

i don't want to bitch and complain, i really don't. but i am just unhappy and i can't help it :(

2010-03-19T09:13:00.000+08:00

This is the japanese poster for "How to train your dragon" movie. I caught the sneak peaks yesterday in 3D!! And it was a really heartwarming show!

I am in love with 3D movies lol. Next will be shrek 4!!

2010-03-15T09:49:00.003+08:00

2010-03-15T09:26:00.002+08:00

sometimes i worry that i am turning into a spoilt brat.

i have a job but i cant stop complaining how much i hate working.

i think i am starting to burnout again. its not because im terribly overwhelmed with work. its more of because i simply cant imagine spending 3/4 of my life holed up in a cubicle with only my laptop for company.

i am sick of this.

whenever i get back from work everyday i am so god damned tired, i dont have the energy to do anything but flop in front of the tv or com before heading to bed. then the whole cycle repeats itself again the next day. i try to get at least 7 hours of sleep a day but it is never enough. i wake up feeling half dead in the morning and drag my ass to work, counting down the hours to 6 o'clock.

i am starting to wonder if something is wrong with me. why am i so tired all the time? and so restless? and so unmotivated?

i really really just want to get away from all this.

2010-03-09T14:27:00.001+08:00

i've got to stop holding myself accountable for other people's actions.
i just don't have the energy to care anymore.

2010-03-06T01:16:00.000+08:00

caught alice in wonderland in 3d today!
arent the pictures just gorgeous? i wanna buy the posters and collect!

2010-02-28T21:57:00.001+08:00

i am scared about things i cannot predict, and things i cannot control.

2010-02-24T17:59:00.004+08:00

removed my other 2 wisdom teeth today by extraction.

was conscious the whole time.

not a very pleasant experience as they took some time to remove. according to the dentist, the roots were quite thick and embedded deep in my gums so it took some heavy twisting and turning of the teeth before they came out.

luckily they numbed my jaw so all i felt was a lot of pressure, but no pain except when my cheek was pulled aside to reach the teeth.

i brought my ipod but the earphones fell out halfway through the extraction so i heard all the gruesome noises -_-

although i very nearly cried from fright in the dentist chair, i am proud to say i survived!

here's an xray of my mouth taken before the wisdom teeth (circled) were removed.

am glad its over and done with!!!!!!!!

2010-02-22T13:15:00.003+08:00

finally have all my referee reports in.
now need to find some time to go down to the post office to get them registered and mailed.

i am just glad that the hardest part is over, and i sure hope that the universities' response will be positive!

if i have to go through the whole process again i think i will jump off a building.

2010-02-20T00:44:00.002+08:00

it kinda sounds cliche, but i need to leave singapore in order to find myself in australia.

applications are a long, tedious process and if im successful for even just one of them, i am going to be tremendously happy.

life is just too unpredictable and aimless at the moment. it'd be nice to know that im gonna spend the next 2 years studying. at least then there is something to commit to, something to work for.

2010-02-16T21:49:00.001+08:00

joanne does not want to go back to work tomorrow and is currently feeling like shit.

CAN I LIKE DONT WORK ANYMORE?

PLEASE???????????????????

:'(

2010-02-14T00:30:00.002+08:00

so today its the start of chinese new year and valentines day.

both days mean nothing to me.

people would ask, 'but what about the hong baos? money lei.'

please, spare me all the social interaction. you can keep your money.

spare me all the ladies carrying bouquets of flowers while the flower sellers laugh their way to the bank.

call me cynical, i dont really care.

chinese new year = 2 extra days of rest of me. and i think thats all that really matters.

2010-02-11T22:41:00.002+08:00

PERCY JACKSON AND THE LIGHTNING THIEF KICKED ASS!

finally a good show after numerous mediocre ones!

it was almost as good as the dark knight, imo. and it sure helped cheer me up after a day of dealing with hyper active, restless and playful kids. too bad they didnt have it in 3D, cos the graphics were really good!

next up - alice in wonderland in 3D! and this time im booking tickets. dont want to end up waiting 2 weeks just to watch the show (like avatar).

i just have to get thru tmr and long weekends here i come!

am still debating whether to pluck my wisdom teeth directly after cny. but i havent made any appointment yet..

2010-02-08T10:48:00.000+08:00

i really just feel like quitting my job.

2010-02-08T09:02:00.002+08:00

later today i need to go to jurong.
tmr i need to go sengkang and thomson.

why cant i just have a peaceful week?
im sick and tired of travelling all around singapore.

just praying that there wont be any last minute surprises for the rest of the week.

fed up.

2010-02-03T21:40:00.001+08:00

as of 3rd Feb 2010,

i have a total of 10 letters to send out.

they constitute referee reports and supplementary forms.

registered mail to australia is going to cost me a bomb.

!#%$^%!^$&^!!

2010-02-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

for the past few days i've been bringing work home to do and i still cant finish
i go to work and rush rush rush till its time to go home
go home and work some more
and i still need to settle my uni applications
and meet up with my referees
and then go down to the agency to hand in my referee reports
and update my resume
and complete whatever other supplementary forms needed

and all i want to do now is tear out my hair and go jump in a river.

GOD HELP ME
FOR TIME IS NOT ON MY SIDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SOBZ

2010-01-31T20:27:00.002+08:00

i dont see why you need to bring up things and make everyone unhappy.

stop trying to change me.

if you cant accept it, then neither can i.

2010-01-30T00:51:00.002+08:00

had one hell of a week and am really thankful the weekends are here.

however, brought home some work to do as was unable to finish and its due monday morning :(

nevertheless, i had an eventful friday night. thanks to those who beared with my grouchiness, moodiness, temper tantrums, nervous breakdowns and generally pissed-off-all-the-time attitude!

next week is going to be busy as well .... but im just gonna take one day at a time for now.

2010-01-26T08:41:00.003+08:00

i wish for my applications to be approved asap so that i can start planning for 2011 and stop thinking about how shitty 2010 is going to be.

tired of trying to be understanding and positive.

i want to escape to australia and have a new start. and sort things out which i cant do while im still here.

as cliche as it may sound, sometimes you need to be forced out of your comfort zone to find the answers you've been looking for.

2010-01-25T16:24:00.002+08:00

i must be cursed, jinxed, or both.

i tried to be positive about today. i really tried.

what happened?

everything that could go wrong went wrong.

so i give up.

FML. seriously.

2010-01-22T15:13:00.001+08:00

Trust another university application to ruin my friday afternoon.

ARGHHHHHHH.

*tears hair out*

2010-01-22T08:56:00.001+08:00

the ~~good~~ great thing about today is that it is friday.

one more day of work and then weekends here i come.

so for this weekend,

i REFUSE to think about work.
i REFUSE to get upset over small things.
i RESOLVE to be happy.
i RESOLVE to have an awesome time.

even if its just for 2 days.

2010-01-21T09:30:00.000+08:00

i just realized something -

i have little/no respect for childish people .... especially in the workplace.

even if you had a 'deprived' childhood, thats not an excuse.

grow up please.

2010-01-20T14:06:00.001+08:00

fed up with work
fed up with people
fed up with life
fed up with everything

fuck this.

2010-01-17T20:42:00.001+08:00

if all goes as planned, in early 2011 i will leave for australia.

in the office i am beginning to see cracks in working relationships. lines are being drawn, barriers are put up.

it saddens me that my perfect world is no longer perfect.

i am powerless to stop things from happening, for i am only a spectator.

this year, and the next, are indeed going to bring about big changes for me, and i can honestly say that i am terrified.

2010-01-10T17:48:00.002+08:00

uni applications will be the death of me

(and my referees)

i am so tired i dont have energy to blog anymore

2010-01-09T15:12:00.000+08:00

although i really dont want to, and i wish i didnt have to,

i am beginning to seriously start worrying abt the near future.

2010-01-08T09:39:00.003+08:00

i have never been so thankful for friday.

this week has been busy, busy, busy... hardly had time for anything and still have work to do despite overtiming!!

anyways next week is gonna be WORSE cos from morning to afternoon ill be undergoing AND facilitating training sessions ALL THE WAY AT FREAKING SIMEI, running around for school visits and consultancies and then running back to MOE again for meetings.

everyday is like packed to the brim and im bound to finish after 7pm or later.

dont think ill get a good rest this weekend either as once again i will be busy with australian uni applications. there is a exhibition of australian unis you see, so most likely ill be there checking out the courses and filling in applications on the spot so that i can bypass the application fees. referee reports (oh the horror!!) will be sent in separately later.

KILL ME PLEASE.

dec i was so slack having nothing to do in the office most days cos 80%-90% of pple were on leave and then in jan the whole truckload of work just came and came!! i know its probably like that everywhere but still!!

1st week of the new year and i am already exhausted and cranky.

not good.

2010-01-04T21:34:00.005+08:00

something i've learnt in the past 22 going on 23 years of my life - EQ is important.

you can have opinions, but whether you express them is another thing.

its so important to always think before you speak.

one conversation, or even just a few words can destroy trust, ruin friendships, break someone's heart.

its funny, i've met so many people much older than myself and supposedly more mature, but they dont know how to carry themselves. they say stupid things, do stupid things, and then look back wondering what the hell happened.

so wisen up. and if you dont have anything good to say, then keep your mouth shut.

if not dont be surprised when life screws you over.

2010-01-04T08:58:00.003+08:00

i suppose this is the point where im supposed to write some emo post abt my new years resolutions?

ahh whatever.

not much mood to blog nowadays.

so what does 2010 have in store for me?

2 things -

1) WORK
2) uni applications

thats about it. i am not looking forward to either.

have started scouting for australian unis and courses.. in the midst of applications ONCE AGAIN.. you have no idea how tiring it is just to get ONE application done.. each application requires you to fill out one long form full of your personal details, qualifications and probably some short write up why you wanna do the course blah blah blah.. on top of that you need to get all your certs and academic transcripts photocopied and verified, plus 2 referee reports... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! the worst part is getting the referee reports.

if im not wrong its only this tedious when u get to masters, cos i suppose its higher level and you need to prove that you are 'qualified' enough.. seriously i think they are like trying to discourage pple from applying or something cos the procedure itself is so daunting!

i mean what if i want to apply to 6 different unis for example? so i need to get 12 referee reports, fill up 6 application forms, and photocopy and verify 30 certs and transcripts (includes o level & a level)????!!!

OMGZ.

SAVE ME.

i need to constantly remind myself that i end work at 6pm and NOT 5pm anymore. which really really sucks cos 6pm = time most pple finish work = rush hour crowd = jam on the bus, jam on the train, jam on the road. ARGHHHHHHH!!!

the atmosphere at work isnt that joyful either, 2 of my colleagues just left and another one of them is leaving end of this wk. I AM SO SAD. call me childish or what but its not gonna be the same again. i got used to the people, used to the same faces, got too comfortable..

guess i only have myself to blame for that. in life nothing is certain except death and taxes right? -_-

ok thats enough of blogging. i need to get back into the swing of things.. dec has been super slack for me with all the public holidays and clearing leave. i literally had to drag my ass to work this morning and it didnt help that it was raining.

I WILL SURVIVE 2010!

(somehow)

2009-12-30T00:15:00.002+08:00

2009-12-27T21:42:00.001+08:00

i tried my best

but i guess my best is not enough

2009-12-22T15:09:00.002+08:00

finally when there is actually a movie that i want to watch (Avatar in 3D), it is sold out in every !!#%$%#^! cinema.

i think so many pple were booking the tickets online that even eng wah's website crashed -_-

THANKS AH.

now ill probably have to wait till after x'mas.

DAMMIT.

grrrrr.

2009-12-20T12:22:00.001+08:00

i am so tired of all this.

i dont want to try anymore.

2009-12-19T12:36:00.002+08:00

it's funny how hello is
always accompanied with goodbye.
it's funny how good memories
can start to make you cry.
it's funny how forever
never seems to really last.
it's funny how much you'd lose
if you forgot about your past.
it's funny how friends can just
leave you when you're down.
it's funny how when you need someone
they're never around.
it's funny how people change
and think they're so much better.
it's funny how many lies
can be packed in one love letter.
it's funny how people forgive
even though they can't forget.
it's funny how one night
can contain so much regret.

2009-12-16T14:31:00.001+08:00

i try to stay positive everyday.

somedays its easier. somedays its harder.

and somedays you just get all the shit thrown at you at once.

2009-12-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

took half day leave today and boy, did i achieve a lot!

left work at 12.30pm, home by 1pm.

had lunch, went online, read book, slept, then went out to do some shopping.

not bad eh??

i guess im more productive as compared to days where im on whole day leave and just bum around and waste time.

finished all my work today as well, which means tmr ill have nothing to do in the office unless something crops up. which will probably be the case, since my boss is back from the US!

2009-12-08T09:05:00.000+08:00

2009-12-08T00:40:00.003+08:00

guess i wont have to wait so long.. COS TWILIGHT THIRD INSTALLMENT IS COMING OUT IN JUNE 2010!!

YAY!! :D

2009-12-07T08:35:00.002+08:00

every week the office is getting emptier and emptier.. i think the next two weeks will be the worst of all.. SIAN

i want more leave!!!!!!!!!!!

recently have been buying a lot of cds, in the past week got 3 already.. hurhur.. music is my salvation.

going to watch new moon today FINALLY! whoots! :D

2009-12-01T11:44:00.001+08:00

today my colleague brought back a miniature eiffel tower for me from paris.

it is beautiful.

but at the same time it broke my heart.

because the eiffel tower does not hold the same meaning to me as it used to.

now instead of hope, it represents failure.

2009-12-01T06:37:00.003+08:00

you've a totally different person.

WAKE UP.

WAKE UP.

WAKE UP.

could you honestly tell me that it was worth it?

had a friend named Victor and
The two of us used to hang every single day
And it seemed like overnight that his whole life just changed
I know when his mom and dad broke up it didn’t make sense
But I know that his dad was a drunk and he gambled away the rent
Pretty soon Vic was seeing red, ticked off,
but instead he’d drink every night until he passed out
and then he'd do it all again
The whole time he was smiling on the outside to cover the pain,
But on the inside all he was just trying to get away

He's dying to get away,
let the pain of yesterday
go slipping through the cracks

2009-11-29T21:40:00.002+08:00

havent updated in awhile.

not really in the mood for blogging lately, so will keep this short..

lazed away my long weekend.. but it was good to get some much needed rest. past 2 weeks at work have been busy.

speaking of work, had a talk with my supervisor, and ill be continuing on for at least 1 more year. i may commit to 2 years if they're able to make me an appointed MOE staff, i.e. not a temp staff/intern anymore (current position).

anyway, more updates on this when things are more confirmed. whats certain for now is that i will spend 2010 working. it hasnt really hit home yet, but i do wish i treasured my freedom more.

my remaining wisdom teeth (2 of them, i think) have started to give me problems. GREAT HUH. but i guess its abt time. one of them is cutting into the side of my mouth. so ill have to get them removed soon, dec maybe? im also entitled to 3.5 days leave, which i intend to clear in dec as well. my precious, precious leave.

and its back to work tmr.

i hate sundays. bah!!

2009-11-16T22:43:00.001+08:00

i want to trust you,
but

i

just

cant

anymore

2009-11-16T11:12:00.002+08:00

i was having a really bad start to the week...

but then i realized that i was actually looking forward to going back to work, cos i missed my colleagues.

why? im not sure, i just did. maybe cos they are such nice pple tt being around them makes me happy.

of course i dreaded waking up and dragging myself to office, but the presence of others made it so much better, so much more 'worth it'.

and indeed it is heartwarming, just by the little gestures tt pple do to make me feel welcome in the office as a temp staff, although according to one colleague im already 'part of the branch'.

this gives me a great sense of belonging.. and im happy. i spent so much time complaining and complaining abt work tt i didnt step back and actually appreciate the wonderful pple around me, who made this whole experience so much more fulfilling.

the future for me is still uncertain, but working has given me at least some idea what i want to do with my life, when previously i was totally lost.

i know now that i would love to work with children with special needs. i love the schools, i love the people.. it is truly a wonderful community that i want to be part of.

:)

2009-11-09T12:36:00.002+08:00

im just gonna take one day at a time and try to focus on making myself happy through little things like watching my favourite shows online, listening to good music, rewarding myself with a milkshake after a hard day's work.. things like that.

its the least i can do for myself.

i have to learn to stop placing my happiness in other people's hands.

2009-11-04T14:50:00.002+08:00

sometimes all you need is someone to believe in you, when you've stopped believing in yourself.

2009-11-02T15:25:00.003+08:00

cant believe its november already.

havent blogged for awhile.

some sad but expected news - i was rejected for NIE's masters course. im upset but.... thats life. i wasnt very optimistic after the interview.

application for JCU submitted, and NUS one has just opened. must find out how to apply.

in a way i am already mentally preparing myself for overseas studies. we'll see.

dont want to dwell too much on this topic for now cos frankly im tired thinking/talking abt it.

on a lighter note, yesterday i went to mount faber with my aunt and uncle. hiked up to jewel box and then all the way down again.

it wasnt that much of a distance.. probably about 5km+, but it was tiring for me since i havent exercised in ages. i survived though, and surprisingly this morning woke up with very minimal aches.

reason for going to mount faber was because my uncle brought me to a multi storey carpark nearby to practice my parking. its a good place to practice cos parking is free, and there are few pple around so i had one whole level to myself to practice. i am slowly but surely getting better and looking forward to the day i can drive my new car to a shopping centre and park it confidently!!! in the meantime using my uncle's car to practice cos im scared ill wreck mine and my dad will murder me.

so until i master my parking looks like every sunday morning ill be heading over to mount faber for practice + exercise. i dont mind, the only problem is i have to wake up at 8am and you know how precious sleep is to me. oh well.. no choice.. wkends are the best time i guess.

2009-10-26T16:30:00.003+08:00

awhile after i posted, the friend i was writing about contacted me.

coincidence? or maybe just fate?

still, it makes me emo.

my supervisor just finished filling in my referee form for my clinical psych masters application.
she says she wants to talk to me abt it tmr.

i am officially freaking out and paranoid, though I probably dont have any reason to be.

sigh!

2009-10-26T13:39:00.002+08:00

dear friend,

i remember you. i remember all the times we spent together. you were a huge part of my childhood, and i look back at it with fondness.

now we've both grown up and moved on, living our own lives.

and if i passed you on the street i fear i'd just walk right by, and so would you.

2009-10-20T23:11:00.003+08:00

WARNING: WHINY BLOG ENTRY AHEAD

you know what i really miss about non-working life?

TIME TO RELAX, TO DO MY OWN THINGS.

im at work from 8.30am to 5pm everyday, and even if i dont end late, i still feel like the evenings/nights are way too short for me to accomplish anything. it doesnt help that im always so tired after a long day at work that i cant really relax, and there's that feeling of dread of having to repeat the same thing again in a matter of hours.

i havent watched a movie for god knows how long, not only cos i'd probably fall asleep in the cinema, but I also feel that my time is too precious to be wasting it on a movie.

i have to cater to the needs of others once im out of work, and it wears me down. i dont have time for myself, time to just do what i want to do, like laze in bed with a good book. i used to finish a book in a matter of 2-3 days. now i cant even finish one in 2 weeks.

ok so im working, so im EXPECTED not to have a life anymore, not to have time anymore... right? i dont know, it all feels so wrong.

i love my colleagues, and i generally love my work (except when pple delay and the workload builds up). but...... its still so damn hard to drag myself out of bed every morning, to psych myself up for it.

im torn.. part of me wants to go back to studying, the other knows that i've found a good, reputable job and that i should hang on to it. and i guess you could say another part of me wants to just go back to those post-thesis days where i bummed around, woke up whatever time i wanted, had the whole day to myself and did whatever the hell i wanted.

its 11.30pm, i'm only gonna get about 7hrs slp (which is not enough considering I havent slept well for the past few days), and I know that tmr is gonna be yet another long day spent counting down to the weekends.

SIGH.
good night world.

2009-10-19T09:33:00.002+08:00

wish i were still in sch so tt today would be a public hol for me & i wouldnt have to work.. so sian.. monday blues..

not much to update, more things coming in for work which is good i suppose, it makes time go faster..

yesterday my hotmail account kena some virus.. ended up spamming alot of pple, including pple i didnt know.. seems ok now after i changed the password

if im not wrong i got the virus from my friend's email.. her hotmail got infected, then i went to open the email and it probably has a tracking cookie in it -_-

still dragging my feet for clinical psych application, due end of the month.. and also waiting for NIE's letter.. rejection sucks. but thats life in s'pore i guess.

to succeed you need work experience + good grades if not you can wait long long for anyone to hire you/get into a local masters programme.

2009-10-10T15:56:00.002+08:00

went to the dentist for my checkup today.. turns out i have 2 more wisdom teeth to abstract, not 1 as i was told previously. DAMN.

but will wait till the holes for my 2 other ones to close first before i extract the remaining 2.

also got a free big bottle of colgate mouthwash when i asked to purchase one.. so nice right! did polishing and scaling of teeth.. omg.. my teeth havent felt this clean in years.. have decided to take good care of them now while im still young, which means i need to go for checkup and scaling every 6 months.. a small price to pay for a full set of healthy teeth, methinks.

even though my dentist is located in orchard, he still charges very reasonable rates. if any of u need a dentist ask me and ill recommend you. haha.

will be sending out my clinical psych application next wk. still havent plucked up the courage to ask my supervisor to fill in my referee report yet though.

why do i feel like im gonna waste my weekends away again?
found out that my supervisor will be on leave sometime in nov, dont know how long though. hopefully she'll tell me i dont have to report for work either, since she's not around. hehe.

2009-10-06T09:45:00.003+08:00

its tt time of the month again.. time for university applications, tt is. applying to jcu's clinical psych masters prog this month.. nus one in nov.. my chances of getting into either are close to zero considering the fact that both places accept like 5-10 pple?

honestly i wouldnt even apply but am being forced by my parents. i mean, dont tell me 'just try'. im being realistic, and i am aware of the competition im up against. how can i compete with working professionals with years of experience?

perhaps after my screwed up NIE interview (which i was most hopeful for btw) i've become somewhat jaded at the prospects of furthering my studies in spore.

dont know if i should continue working or just go straight to australia. but from what i've heard, applications for next yr have closed so if i want to go overseas need to wait till 2011. so will probably continue working if MOE will have me. might as well boost my resume instead of just wasting time.

MOODY :(

need to ask my uni supervisor and my work supervisor to write referrals for me. SO PAI SEH. i just dont want to waste their efforts when i dont even stand a chance of getting accepted....

2009-10-04T01:25:00.010+08:00

HOW CUTE ARE THESE?
I WANT TO LIKE BUY ALL OF THEM OMG

2009-10-02T21:10:00.002+08:00

happyhappyhappy... simply cos its a friday night lol!
time to catch up on my tv shows!

everytime after a meal i have to rinse my mouth for abt 5-10 mins before all the food particles come out, but aside from this inconveniece im coping..

have been indulging in lots of my favourite food as you can tell from my depleting list (see previous post).

havent taken the new car for a spin for a whole wk, so cant wait to drive it again~!
hopefully next wk my dad will let me drive it to work and back.

2009-09-30T08:21:00.002+08:00

wisdom tooth wounds taking forever to heal.. and its giving me alot of problems in the meantime cos i cant eat properly.

yesterday there was some white gooey stuff stuck in the deep wound on my right which i just couldnt get out.. i think it was causing an infection cos the side of my face was swelling and hurt quite badly..

luckily this morning seems better after rinsing, but not sure if i should go to the dentist to get it checked out just in case.. its a good thing my dentist is in town, which is like 10 mins from my workplace.

midwk and the last day of sept.. 3 more months to go at moe.. but who knows what the near future holds? i've told myself i should stop complaining abt work when alot of pple are still struggling to find a job.. just wish it wasnt so competitive everywhere in s'pore.

2009-09-27T07:35:00.002+08:00

YAY!!! I WANT!!

2009-09-26T23:11:00.012+08:00

graduation day.
nice being with all the psych pple again :)
took quite a few pics, will upload on facebk soon.

long day so wont blog much.. tired.

just wanna put down a list of things that i want to eat/drink.
YES I CAN FINALLY EAT.
although its damn troublesome after tt cos all the food gets stuck in the holes, but heck.

1. ~~casurina prata~~
2. ~~pow sing chicken rice~~
3. ~~parkway parade beef noodles~~
4. ~~snow ice~~
5. ~~pontian wanton mee~~
6. ~~bishan crabstick pancake~~
7. adam rd nasi lemak
8. ~~b&j's strawberry milkshake~~
9. s'goon gdn mkt hokkien mee
10. ~~mac's double cheeseburger~~
11. ~~carl's jr portebello burger~~
12. ~~casurina milo dinosaur~~
13. shaker fries (i have the seaweed packs muahahaha)
14. ~~kfc chicken original flavour~~
15. swensen's breakfast (omelette set)
16. long john silvers' texas chicken
17. ~~redhill ba chor mee~~
18. ~~soup spoon homemade chicken noodle soup~~
19. ~~strawberry milk curd~~
20. ~~ramly burger~~
21. ~~popeye's chicken~~
22. ~~canadian pizza atlantis~~
23. ~~rite pizza mayo chicken~~
24. ~~amk cheese fries~~

2009-09-25T09:01:00.001+08:00

back at work again... this morning was feeling horrible so downed all 3 medications (antibiotics, swelling, painkiller)... now a bit better.. i cant believe one whole wk has just gone by like that.

am so lost at work now, dont know what the hell has been going on although according to my colleague i didnt miss much.. and everyone thought i'd be on MC till next wk and was so surprised to see me back.. i should've just stayed at home today right -_-

oh well, nvr mind, just come and show face.

TGIF

2009-09-24T11:45:00.004+08:00

just came back from the dentist to get my stitches removed.

and guess what - my right side wound kena INFECTION.

NO WONDER IT WAS SO PAINFUL.

cos on the second day after surgery, one of the stitches came out while i was gargling my mouth. i didnt think much of it, but apparently bcos of tt, the wound couldnt close and heal properly and food got stuck in it. SIGH. lucky lucky me.

somemore apparently the right side wound is very deep and it was a complicated surgery.. so it takes longer to heal. left side has healed fine.

dentist removed stitches from both wounds, cleaned up the infected right side and then put medicine in it. also got new antibiotics. he says i should be ok by tmr. still have to go back to work though.. cant talk now either cos its still sore from all the prodding :(

but i suppose the worst is over. i still have one more tooth to remove which has decayed -_-" but tt one just by extraction, and it'll be faster and a lot less painful. dont wanna think abt it now, just wanna focus on recovering from this first.

on a brighter note, my new car is here. pictures when im feeling better.

2009-09-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

MISERABLE.

WANT TO EAT.

SICK OF PORRIDGE AND MASHED POTATO.

SICK OF ACHING JAW.

NEED TO GET WELL BY SAT FOR GRADUATION.

DONT WANT TO GO BACK TO WORK.

2009-09-21T14:54:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder if you honestly forgot, or if you just pretend not to remember.

2009-09-19T19:36:00.003+08:00

so wisdom teeth surgery today.

i didnt eat anything since last night's dinner with colleagues, so they gave me half a cup of oats to eat before i took my antibiotics. then i went into the room and lay down on the dentist chair and was injected with anesthetic.. i recall asking the dentist some questions, looking around, and the next thing i know, im being woken up and having gauze taken out the sides of my mouth and new ones put in.

guess the general anaesthetic did its part cos i dont remember anything.

had to sit down and lean on my dad for 1/2hr in the clinic cos i was too groggy and sleepy to walk straight. fell asleep in the car, got home and rested awhile. my whole mouth was numb, couldnt feel anything. so i got a shock when i opened it and saw blood threatening to pour out -__-"

had to change the gauze twice before the wounds stopped bleeding. but it was fine, only hurt when i changed it the first time and even then, it was only for awhile and i didnt need to take painkillers. bleeding stopped after abt an hr. had 3/4 tub of large mashed potato from KFC for lunch/dinner. initially could open open my mouth a tiny bit but as i kept eating it got better.

basically now im fine, just tt my jaws are a little sore and swollen, i cant talk properly, and can only eat soft foods. not a bad deal i'd say. am glad to be rid of the teeth. i have one more to remove, but that one doesnt require surgery, it can be easily extracted and is not giving me any problems now.

so YAY to me and YAY to my dentist.

i scared myself silly for nothing.

removing stitches on thurs and not going back to work till fri so i shall enjoy my super extended weekend LOL ^_^

2009-09-18T08:23:00.002+08:00

wisdom tooth surgery brought forward to tmr.

scared, but i just want it over and done with. hurts like shit.

which means i forfeit my wkend and need to go back to work on thurs. but nvr mind, 3 days off from work is better than no days.

2009-09-16T10:39:00.002+08:00

yesterday i reached my breaking point and i just blew up.

i have calmed down now.

but still disillusioned, depressed, and overall very, very unsatisfied.

2009-09-14T23:03:00.002+08:00

fuck you, wisdom tooth!!

you give me 2 days of peace and then come back with a vengence!!

i am so gonna get you removed!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

&$&%$&&%(@(($((%*^*@*

2009-09-13T21:57:00.002+08:00

i have a horrible headache, no thanks to 3 uncouth, uncivilized, barbaric foreigners from a certain country. (make a guess which one, its not that hard).

let me share with you my hellicious 15mins bus ride experience (it seemed longer than that).

because the bus was crowded, i sat all the way at the back in the middle. there were 2 empty seats on both sides. then these 3 youngsters boarded the bus - 2 guys, 1 girl.

and i couldnt help but notice tt the girl was wearing a very thin tank top, with a bra that was obviously unpadded cos the WHOLE DAMN BUS could see her twin peaks. for goodness sake, have some modesty, there's a reason why bras are padded! my dear girl, please upgrade - you're developing/already developed and therefore should not still be wearing training bras!! i understand if you want to try and seduce ur bf or something, but pls be aware that there are alot of cheekopek uncles around who are literally salivating at your chest and entertaining who-knows-what thoughts in their heads.

so the whole gang trooped over to the back where i was sitting and the girl sat next to me. then one of the guys, her bf, just stood in front of me and stared at me. ok so being the nice person that i am, i moved in one seat so tt the couple could sit together. BIG MISTAKE. they started to grope each other. and the guy either had horrible BO, bad breath, or both cos MAN DID HE STINK. the other guy sat one seat in front of them and immediately proceeded to BLAST (and i mean REALLY BLAST) his cheena music from his handphone. to make matters worse, HE STARTED TO SING ALONG.

and you thought this is the end right?

but noooooo, the other guy, the bf of the girl, then proceeds to take out HIS handphone and BLAST IT ALONG AS WELL. so we have 2 handphones blasting music at MAXIMUM VOLUME, playing DIFFERENT SONGS, and a guy singing along LOUDLY with the music. are we having a competition here or what? 'who can blast music the loudest on the bus'.

CAN YOU NOT TELL TT THE BUS IS CROWDED, AND EVERYONE IS GIVING YOU DEATH STARES? HELLO, IF YOU CAN AFFORD TO BUY A HANDPHONE IM SURE YOU CAN AFFORD TO BUY HEADPHONES. OR HAVE YOU NEVER HEARD OF ONE BEFORE?

GOD FORBID.

pls go back to where you belong, Singapore does not need you contributing to our NOISE AND AIR POLLUTION levels thanks.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PPLE?

2009-09-13T00:55:00.002+08:00

things i miss doing/dont have enough time to do:

1. read books & magazines (4 days & i STILL havent finished my CLEO mag wtf)
2. watch shows online (currently watching project runway & ANTM)
3. watch tv
4. sleep (8hrs of slp is like heaven)
5. listen to music
6. student lunch/student movie prices
7. shop
8. download songs (dont listen to radio, therefore no songs to download)

barely 3 months of work and im dying. cant imagine next time. now i understand what working pple mean when they say they have 'no time and no life'.

SIGH! :'(

2009-09-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

im just your punching bag.

2009-09-09T08:58:00.002+08:00

i dont feel like doing this anymore.
i just want to go home.

i want my teeth to stop hurting.
i want my stomach to stop hurting.
i want to go back in time and redo that interview.

i want to pretend that i know exactly what the hell im doing with my life.

2009-09-07T19:04:00.000+08:00

ok. so i booked an appointment with the dentist today.

i figured with so much shit going on now, i should just go and confirm that its my wisdom teeth giving me problems and have some peace of mind.

went to a dentist at lucky plaza after looking through some reviews.

well he is very pro and nice. before i saw him i had to do this xray of my whole mouth which is damn zai. then the moment i stepped into the room, he said 'your wisdom tooth giving you problem, right?' -__-"

ok when i looked at the xray its pretty obvious. and trust my wisdom teeth to be the WORST POSSIBLE KIND - they are growing horizontally and therefore need to be taken out. haiiii.

i guess i was already expecting this. just needed a dentist to confirm it for me. the gd thing is i can claim from medisave - the more wisdom teeth i pluck, the more i can claim. but i think i will only pluck the bottom lower jaw 2 teeth first, as they are the problematic ones. and im not sure if i can stand the pain of plucking more than that. so apparently i only need to pay for general anesthetic. awesome. at least there's some gd news.

another piece of gd news is tt aside from the wisdom teeth, there's nothing else wrong with my teeth. no holes, decay or what. i am amazed. looks like my years of religiously sticking to the 'brush teeth twice a day' regime has paid off. i remember as a kid my parents used to FORCE me to brush my teeth. i had quite a few tooth decays then, and often had to go to the sch dentist -_- but after awhile it became a gd habit i guess, and now i cant slp if i dont brush my teeth. so many thanks to my parents for that.

next wk is out of the question for the surgery, i am packed from morning till night with work stuff. so i guess it has to be sometime next next wk? problem is, i have graduation ceremony coming up and im worried my face will look swollen in photos. so now need to dig up some free time to get this done. 5 day MC btw. worse come to worse will have to do it during wkends and 'forfeit' 2 days MC.

who knew that a tiny tooth could cause so much trouble? but i guess i gotta suck it up and just go thru with it.. its now or never, and best not to delay these kind of things.

so my dear friends, excuse me if ill be extremely busy & uncontactable for the remaining of the month. i will blog whenever i can. but if u all want to jio me out, pls wait till oct. sorry! :(

2009-09-07T08:42:00.002+08:00

i really envy those pple who love their job.

i feel somewhat guilty saying this.. but i dont feel satisfied with my job. others are gonna come tell me, 'come on, this is such a great opportunity! its MOE lei, so prestigeous!' etc.

but, after 2 months of working here.. even though i like the people.. why do i still feel so empty and so lost?

maybe after the failed interview on fri, i feel like i dont have any purpose being here anymore. the whole point was to further my studies in educational psych. if i cant even do that, then why i am here? of course i can major in other areas of psych, but that means im not really in the appropriate job now.

i dont know. i dont know what to think anymore.

i feel so unmotivated. its a chore to drag myself out of bed to work everyday. and everyday i just count down the hours till its time to go home.

and i ask myself why?

i used to love this job. for the first 1 month plus. and then somewhere along the way it changed. and i dont know why.

i feel disillusioned and just tired. the selfish part of me wants to go back to those lazy, carefree days where i could wake up anytime i wanted and do whatever i wanted the whole day. i know thats not realistic, obviously i cant live that way for the rest of my life.

still.. part of me really craves some sort of break. perhaps i need to sort things out.. i am very much alone in this.. i need direction, need focus, need the old me back...

2009-09-05T10:16:00.001+08:00

to put it bluntly, my interview didnt go well.

in the prerequisites for the masters programme there was no mention of the need for teaching experience at all.

so you can imagine the nasty shock i got during the interview, where i was constantly 'reminded' (this is putting it nicely) that i had NO teaching experience and would therefore struggle if i were in the programme. and psychologists are supposed to be UNBIASED, no?

on top of that, one of the interviewer (there were 2) mentioned tt i was very young. YES i am young. but does that make me any less capable?

this has held true time and time again, particularly for the field of psychology: YOUNG = NO EXPERIENCE = LOUSY.

if pple want to hold that mindset, fine by me. if they are already biased towards me and have marked me down in their minds, there is nothing i can do to change that.

i am only disappointed with myself that i did not answer the questions or defend myself as well as I SHOULD AND COULD HAVE. i was just not up to standard that day, and went away from the whole thing feeling very small indeed.

my spirit is crushed, and i will eventually pick myself up. but in the meantime dont blame me if im a grouch.

i dont really want to go into details abt the interview, cos reliving the experience leaves me with a bitter taste in my mouth.

so thats all.

2009-09-02T00:04:00.000+08:00

12am.

i have to get up in 6 and 1/2hrs later but i cant slp from worry.

on friday afternoon i have to go down to NIE for an interview for my masters. there will also be a written test.

MAJORLY MAJORLY FREAKED OUT + PANICKY x 10000.

secondly, i have been having horrible toothaches the whole of last night. as a result, only slept for 3hrs and woke up in pain. i went to do research, and it seems like my wisdom tooth on one side of my mouth is growing out. and do u know what this means? I NEED TO GET IT SURGICALLY REMOVED.

GREAT. JUST GREAT.

on my PRECIOUS one day off, i get my sleep disrupted, find out i probably need to go for surgery and on top of that have an interview to prepare for that will determine the next few years of my life.

IT COULDNT GET ANY BETTER.

although my teeth still hurt, i guess now im more worried abt the interview. wanted to see a dentist, but now will have to put it off till after the interview in case they want to operate soon or something. i just hope the pain doesnt kill me first.

GOD HELP ME.

2009-08-31T14:53:00.002+08:00

tmr my colleagues get one day off from work in celebration of teachers day, so because no one is gonna be in the office, i dont have to come to work either! YAY!

this is like the best news in a long while!

so obviously today, dont have much mood to work, although the whole morning i was kept busy rushing to finish today's and last friday's work. thankfully im all done now and have 2 hrs more to kill before knocking off :)

recently my whole body has gone whack.

it's not that time of the month yet, but i have been feeling bloated and queasy at times. appetite peaks and then dips at strange times. plus worse of all, i have been getting toothaches/gum aches on and off, particularly at night. sometimes i get ulcers, and always at the back of my mouth but then they disappear within a day.

WTH right.

i brush my teeth twice a day so i have no idea why im suddenly getting toothaches. but it worries me cos i cant sleep at night and my gums hurt :( perhaps it could be due to my increase in sweet intake ever since i started work. currently i have 3 packs of sweets + 1 pack of MNM's + other random sweets all stashed in my cabinet. but whats funny is that i dont eat sweets everyday! i only eat them when im falling asleep/craving/hungry.

i think the ulcers could be due to the hot weather and my not drinking enough water.

seriously dont know whats wrong. if the toothaches persist next wk ill have to go see a dentist :(

anw i shall not let all this get me down and instead look forward to my off day tmr :) think will spend it at home with a good book.

2009-08-28T21:33:00.000+08:00

omg.. i swear tt when ur busy, the time just flies!
imagine, the whole of this wk i was mostly slacking in the office, taking my time to do my stuff.

but then today, friday, the moment i sat down at 8.30am i had work to do all the way till 12.45pm, had a quick lunch and then rushed off to a sch at kembangan. the sch thing was last minute - supposed to accompany my colleague there originally, but in the end she had something impt to finish and couldnt go, so i had to stand in for her -__-"

so sian ok.. it wasnt really a sch visit.. more like i was there to observe some emergency exercise. like say there's a fire in the sch, what do you do etc. basically i did nothing, just sat around. and the briefing + exercise lasted 3 hrs!

i was kinda cursing my luck, cos i still had work to finish up in the office and would rather be there doing it. but no choice, MOE is like tt, last min they will throw u stuff and u just gotta accept it and do it. oh well, at least i know i have work to keep my occupied on monday.

btw!

remember the roof incident? (see older posts)

on thurs morning the ceiling in the deputy director (my boss' boss) office collapsed as well! which is so funny cos her office is located on the ground floor. later i heard tt there's like some structural problem. apparently all the ceilings at MOE were recently renovated and the contractors must have done a bad job. so now the whole building and all the branches need to get their ceilings done again. tsk tsk.

so now i have a dusty and cold office :(

weekends are finally here again~! not sure what to do though..

2009-08-25T10:15:00.002+08:00

i just need to get this off my chest even if the person is never gonna see it.

if you dont turn up for lectures/dont understand what is being taught u jolly well ask the teacher. dont wait till last minute, panic, and fucking try to pay other people to do it for you. then when it is not done to ur mighty expectations, kao bei.

if you had the responsibility you would have fucking turned up for lects/sought help. now you want to panic and rush other people and make people stressed in the process like they fucking owe you a living.

have some intergrity and do the work yourself. if you have to fail serves you right for not helping yourself. you can get people to help you now but will they always help you all the time? at some point no matter how much ur offering, pple will not want to accept ur fucking money. cos ur money aint worth the effort and all the shit they have to go thru just to get it.

FUCK YOU.

2009-08-22T10:57:00.002+08:00

today i am blogging for the sake of blogging even though there's not much to say..

didnt slp as much as i'd expected to.. in fact was awake by 8am and couldn't get back to slp. maybe my body clock is finally readjusting itself to suit my working hours.. either that or it's because this wk was relatively slack compared to other weeks..

had meeting after meeting after meeting. sat until ass pain.
yesterday, totally slacked off in the office after submitting required work in the morning to my supervisor.

i have a long report which i should get started on, but i simply couldnt motivate myself. it didnt help that it was friday, it was raining like hell and i just wanted to get out of the cold lonely office. i was mostly alone as everyone had gone on meetings which i was not required to attend. so i just surfed the net aimlessly till there was nothing to surf -_-

overall a very boring, monotonous wk. i think i'd rather be busy with work. and i cant believe it's saturday already, tmr will fly by and the cycle repeats. i miss studying :(

2009-08-14T19:17:00.002+08:00

friday night, am home blogging again.. ok this is getting repetitive.

anw! im sure some of u heard abt the incident at my workplace? those of u that saw my facebook post at least.

well for the benefit of those that didnt, a recap:

on tuesday morning, part of the ceiling came down on my colleague. she sits directly opposite from me. i wasnt there to witness the incident, was out of office for testing. apparently one of the wooden beams attached to the structure of the roof (my office is on the highest floor) broke off, crashed through the ceiling and in the process broke off some of the ceiling panals, which all came crashing down on my poor colleague, including the wooden beam which missed her head by mere inches.

this goes to show that even at work ur not safe! goodness gracious me. the whole place was in a mess, and workers and engineers were called in. eventually they removed the whole ceiling panals, so now when you look up you see the tin roof and what's left of the structure. as a result, the whole place is perpetually dusty and i never fail to sneeze when i enter the office every morning. its not the whole office tt got affected, just my section, which is at the back end of the office. 5 of us colleagues are located there.

so my colleague, the one whom the ceiling came down on, was taken to hospital. thankfully no broken bones or anything, but it seems that the falling debris did hit her on one side, so the last i heard she was suffering from migraine on one side of her head, and has some minor bruises. she hasnt come in to work since then. i feel so sorry for her :(

repair works have already begun on the ceiling, but its gonna take them ages to complete cos the workers only come in every evening around 6pm so im assuming they cant stay and work that long.

DRAMA OK!! -____-"

ok on to other things..

am finally finally done with testing and wont have to travel 1000 miles to the far ends of spore. WHOOT! however, will soon have data analysis to work on which im dreading cos i have yet to revisit and revise my SPSS.

this wk wasnt so bad, thanks to monday being a public holiday, so time passed faster. why cant they make every monday a public holiday?

i have tons of library books rotting at home, overdue and waiting to be read.. but every night im too tired and can only manage to read a few chapters, sometimes none at all.. i really miss having the time to read! yeah i know that now that im working, i shouldnt be borrowing books but i cant help it! everytime i go into a library i usually end up picking up something. i think i was a librarian in my past life. or a nerd. or both.

if only i were this studious when it comes to reading textbooks right? or my spss book. hahaha. hai!!

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every saturday i catch up on missed slp over the wk.. last night slept at 9pm and woke up at 9am this morning.. and its still not enough lol.. i get an average of 5hrs slp every mon-fri.. i think my body clock hasnt adjusted to sleeping early/waking up early pattern yet..

anw not much to update.. am so thankful for the public holiday on mon.. one day makes a whole lot of difference when ur working.. next wk am gonna be in schs for test administration again.. where? SIMEI AND JURONG.. *cries* :( but just have to tah han this last wk and then it'll be over.. unless my supervisor makes me go schs and do interviews (upcoming proj).. then ill just faint cos they r all over s'pore.

ok thats abt it. shall try to make the most out of the long wkend. its so so precious!

STILL need more work clothes :(