havent been updating often, because mostly everyday is just the same.
9 more months of this.
i don't think i can take it, but its not like i really have a choice.
since i only have 7 days leave, have decided that i'll take no pay leave if need be.
am planning to go for a short family holiday, probably about a week, either australia or new zealand. i just really need to get away for awhile.
nothing really seems to cheer me up anymore, not shopping, not nice 3D movies, not comfort food, not anything.
someone told me that when you're working, unless you're doing something you like, you're gonna be depressed all the time. and its true!! i am somewhat depressed 90% of the time.
sigh!
i used to love this job, not so much because of my job scope, but more so because of the environment and the nice people. but with time i realize that much of what i thought was really a facade.. there is politics, gossip, bad mouthing, even backstabbing.
yes i know its all part of working life. i just wish i knew this was coming earlier.
i don't want to bitch and complain, i really don't. but i am just unhappy and i can't help it :(
