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Sunday, January 31, 2010

i dont see why you need to bring up things and make everyone unhappy.

stop trying to change me.

if you cant accept it, then neither can i.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

had one hell of a week and am really thankful the weekends are here.

however, brought home some work to do as was unable to finish and its due monday morning :(

nevertheless, i had an eventful friday night. thanks to those who beared with my grouchiness, moodiness, temper tantrums, nervous breakdowns and generally pissed-off-all-the-time attitude!

next week is going to be busy as well .... but im just gonna take one day at a time for now.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

i wish for my applications to be approved asap so that i can start planning for 2011 and stop thinking about how shitty 2010 is going to be.

tired of trying to be understanding and positive.

i want to escape to australia and have a new start. and sort things out which i cant do while im still here.

as cliche as it may sound, sometimes you need to be forced out of your comfort zone to find the answers you've been looking for.

Monday, January 25, 2010

i must be cursed, jinxed, or both.

i tried to be positive about today. i really tried.

what happened?

everything that could go wrong went wrong.

so i give up.

FML. seriously.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Trust another university application to ruin my friday afternoon.

ARGHHHHHHH.

*tears hair out*

the good great thing about today is that it is friday.

one more day of work and then weekends here i come.

so for this weekend,

i REFUSE to think about work.
i REFUSE to get upset over small things.
i RESOLVE to be happy.
i RESOLVE to have an awesome time.


even if its just for 2 days.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

i just realized something -

i have little/no respect for childish people .... especially in the workplace.

even if you had a 'deprived' childhood, thats not an excuse.

grow up please.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

fed up with work
fed up with people
fed up with life
fed up with everything

fuck this.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

if all goes as planned, in early 2011 i will leave for australia.

in the office i am beginning to see cracks in working relationships. lines are being drawn, barriers are put up.

it saddens me that my perfect world is no longer perfect.

i am powerless to stop things from happening, for i am only a spectator.

this year, and the next, are indeed going to bring about big changes for me, and i can honestly say that i am terrified.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

uni applications will be the death of me

(and my referees)

i am so tired i dont have energy to blog anymore

Saturday, January 09, 2010

although i really dont want to, and i wish i didnt have to,

i am beginning to seriously start worrying abt the near future.

Friday, January 08, 2010

i have never been so thankful for friday.

this week has been busy, busy, busy... hardly had time for anything and still have work to do despite overtiming!!

anyways next week is gonna be WORSE cos from morning to afternoon ill be undergoing AND facilitating training sessions ALL THE WAY AT FREAKING SIMEI, running around for school visits and consultancies and then running back to MOE again for meetings.

everyday is like packed to the brim and im bound to finish after 7pm or later.

dont think ill get a good rest this weekend either as once again i will be busy with australian uni applications. there is a exhibition of australian unis you see, so most likely ill be there checking out the courses and filling in applications on the spot so that i can bypass the application fees. referee reports (oh the horror!!) will be sent in separately later.

KILL ME PLEASE.

dec i was so slack having nothing to do in the office most days cos 80%-90% of pple were on leave and then in jan the whole truckload of work just came and came!! i know its probably like that everywhere but still!!

1st week of the new year and i am already exhausted and cranky.

not good.

Monday, January 04, 2010

something i've learnt in the past 22 going on 23 years of my life - EQ is important.

you can have opinions, but whether you express them is another thing.

its so important to always think before you speak.

one conversation, or even just a few words can destroy trust, ruin friendships, break someone's heart.

its funny, i've met so many people much older than myself and supposedly more mature, but they dont know how to carry themselves. they say stupid things, do stupid things, and then look back wondering what the hell happened.

so wisen up. and if you dont have anything good to say, then keep your mouth shut.

if not dont be surprised when life screws you over.

i suppose this is the point where im supposed to write some emo post abt my new years resolutions?

ahh whatever.

not much mood to blog nowadays.

so what does 2010 have in store for me?

2 things -

1) WORK
2) uni applications

thats about it. i am not looking forward to either.

have started scouting for australian unis and courses.. in the midst of applications ONCE AGAIN.. you have no idea how tiring it is just to get ONE application done.. each application requires you to fill out one long form full of your personal details, qualifications and probably some short write up why you wanna do the course blah blah blah.. on top of that you need to get all your certs and academic transcripts photocopied and verified, plus 2 referee reports... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! the worst part is getting the referee reports.

if im not wrong its only this tedious when u get to masters, cos i suppose its higher level and you need to prove that you are 'qualified' enough.. seriously i think they are like trying to discourage pple from applying or something cos the procedure itself is so daunting!

i mean what if i want to apply to 6 different unis for example? so i need to get 12 referee reports, fill up 6 application forms, and photocopy and verify 30 certs and transcripts (includes o level & a level)????!!!

OMGZ.

SAVE ME.

i need to constantly remind myself that i end work at 6pm and NOT 5pm anymore. which really really sucks cos 6pm = time most pple finish work = rush hour crowd = jam on the bus, jam on the train, jam on the road. ARGHHHHHHH!!!

the atmosphere at work isnt that joyful either, 2 of my colleagues just left and another one of them is leaving end of this wk. I AM SO SAD. call me childish or what but its not gonna be the same again. i got used to the people, used to the same faces, got too comfortable..

guess i only have myself to blame for that. in life nothing is certain except death and taxes right? -_-

ok thats enough of blogging. i need to get back into the swing of things.. dec has been super slack for me with all the public holidays and clearing leave. i literally had to drag my ass to work this morning and it didnt help that it was raining.

I WILL SURVIVE 2010!

(somehow)