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Sunday, November 29, 2009

havent updated in awhile.

not really in the mood for blogging lately, so will keep this short..

lazed away my long weekend.. but it was good to get some much needed rest. past 2 weeks at work have been busy.

speaking of work, had a talk with my supervisor, and ill be continuing on for at least 1 more year. i may commit to 2 years if they're able to make me an appointed MOE staff, i.e. not a temp staff/intern anymore (current position).

anyway, more updates on this when things are more confirmed. whats certain for now is that i will spend 2010 working. it hasnt really hit home yet, but i do wish i treasured my freedom more.

my remaining wisdom teeth (2 of them, i think) have started to give me problems. GREAT HUH. but i guess its abt time. one of them is cutting into the side of my mouth. so ill have to get them removed soon, dec maybe? im also entitled to 3.5 days leave, which i intend to clear in dec as well. my precious, precious leave.

and its back to work tmr.

i hate sundays. bah!!

Monday, November 16, 2009

i want to trust you,
but

i

just

cant

anymore

i was having a really bad start to the week...

but then i realized that i was actually looking forward to going back to work, cos i missed my colleagues.

why? im not sure, i just did. maybe cos they are such nice pple tt being around them makes me happy.

of course i dreaded waking up and dragging myself to office, but the presence of others made it so much better, so much more 'worth it'.

and indeed it is heartwarming, just by the little gestures tt pple do to make me feel welcome in the office as a temp staff, although according to one colleague im already 'part of the branch'.

this gives me a great sense of belonging.. and im happy. i spent so much time complaining and complaining abt work tt i didnt step back and actually appreciate the wonderful pple around me, who made this whole experience so much more fulfilling.

the future for me is still uncertain, but working has given me at least some idea what i want to do with my life, when previously i was totally lost.

i know now that i would love to work with children with special needs. i love the schools, i love the people.. it is truly a wonderful community that i want to be part of.

:)

Monday, November 09, 2009

im just gonna take one day at a time and try to focus on making myself happy through little things like watching my favourite shows online, listening to good music, rewarding myself with a milkshake after a hard day's work.. things like that.

its the least i can do for myself.

i have to learn to stop placing my happiness in other people's hands.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

sometimes all you need is someone to believe in you, when you've stopped believing in yourself.

Monday, November 02, 2009

cant believe its november already.

havent blogged for awhile.

some sad but expected news - i was rejected for NIE's masters course. im upset but.... thats life. i wasnt very optimistic after the interview.

application for JCU submitted, and NUS one has just opened. must find out how to apply.

in a way i am already mentally preparing myself for overseas studies. we'll see.

dont want to dwell too much on this topic for now cos frankly im tired thinking/talking abt it.

on a lighter note, yesterday i went to mount faber with my aunt and uncle. hiked up to jewel box and then all the way down again.

it wasnt that much of a distance.. probably about 5km+, but it was tiring for me since i havent exercised in ages. i survived though, and surprisingly this morning woke up with very minimal aches.

reason for going to mount faber was because my uncle brought me to a multi storey carpark nearby to practice my parking. its a good place to practice cos parking is free, and there are few pple around so i had one whole level to myself to practice. i am slowly but surely getting better and looking forward to the day i can drive my new car to a shopping centre and park it confidently!!! in the meantime using my uncle's car to practice cos im scared ill wreck mine and my dad will murder me.

so until i master my parking looks like every sunday morning ill be heading over to mount faber for practice + exercise. i dont mind, the only problem is i have to wake up at 8am and you know how precious sleep is to me. oh well.. no choice.. wkends are the best time i guess.