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sooner or later i need to face facts.. there is a high likelihood tt ill have to go overseas (i.e. australia) to further my studies. of course i intend to apply for local unis but im not very optimistic abt my chances of securing a place. after all, its not like my grades are outstanding and the places are so limited. s'pore is just opening up to the field of psychology so you can imagine the competition. sigh.

was chatting with alethea awhile ago online and she helped me alot, answering my gazillion qns abt studying in aust. i figured tt since she's been thru it before she would be one of the best persons to ask. now armed with a whole load of knowledge, i need to go do my research.

i am feeling so miserable! spore is my comfort zone.. i want to drive around once i obtain my license, not fly off to australia! sure, i can drive in australia too but thats the thing - i dont want to! i wanna stay in spore. but i have to be realistic. i've been putting this off for too long.

god knows why im blogging abt it.. i guess i have a lot of thoughts in my head that i need to sort out and typing it all down helps me feel better and somewhat more focused.

so, my plan is that i will apply for both jcu (spore) and NIE masters courses. i will also apply for australian unis. i need to visit the agency tt alethea recommended so i can get a better idea what options are available for me. thats abt it.

i am so very scared :(
the thought of being in a foreign place, having to start all over again, getting settled down, making new friends..

OMG.
i guess the plus side would be my parents wont be breathing down my neck as much.

SIGH.