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Wednesday, December 31, 2008

THESIS IS FINALIZED

just need to get it printed and binded

HAPPY 2009 EVERYONE

im starting on a fresh page :)

plans for 2009 - first quarter
1. trip to hong kong (jan/feb)
2. driving license (feb-???)
3. application for psych masters programs (feb)
4. lime flea market (feb)
5. exercise twice a week (jan)

Sunday, December 28, 2008

RICH KID
[ ] You go tanning.
[ ] You own something from Coach
[ ] You have over 10 pairs of jeans.
[ ] You own something from Prada
[x] Usually when you ask your mom for money she gives it to you.
[x] You like going to the mall.
[x] You own an iPod/MP3 player.
[x] you love Starbucks.
[ ] You have been called a brat.
[x] You have tons of shoes
[ ] You hate buying things that are on sale
[ ] You have more than one house
Total: 5

GOTHIC
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[x] You have thought about death.
[ ] You've attempted suicide
[ ] You wear chains.
[x] You like heavy metal.
[ ] You've shopped at Hot Topic.
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[x] Your hair was/is dark.
[ ] You dislike preps.
[ ] You have/want piercings
[ ] You're going to/or have a tattoo.
Total: 4

PUNK
[ ] You can skateboard.
[x] You wear plaid.
[ ] You like Converse.
[ ] You hate MTV.
[x] You have/had/want/wanted blue, red, purple, or green hair.
[ ] You dislike pink.
[ ] You hate preps.
[ ] You wear/have worn skateboarding shoes.
[ ] Shop at Pac Sun
Total: 2

GEEK
[x] You love the computer.
[ ] You like Star Wars.
[x] You are supposed/wore/wear glasses/contacts
[ ] You get straight A's
[x] You like reading.
[ ] You were/are in a band.
[x] You have a curfew.
[ ] You always do your homework.
[ ] You never miss school unless you're sick.
Total: 4

EMO
[x] You've been depressed.
[ ] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like the band Thursday.
[x] You cry easily.
[x] You like emo music.
[ ] You hate being called emo.
[x] You keep a journal/diary
[x] You have written a sad poem.
[x] You have/had a sad MySpace layout.
[x] You think emo kids are hot
Total: 7

GHETTO/GANGSTA
[x] You like rap
[ ] You are in a gang.
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[ ] You have had a freestyle battle.
[ ] You have worn converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total: 1

HARDCORE
[x] You like loud music
[ ] You love the Ninja Turtles
[ ] You never walk anywhere.
[x] You wear slip-on shoes.
[ ] You love Normal Jeans.
[ ] You wear band t-shirts.
[ ] You love to 'hardcore' dance.
[x] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
[ ] You wear blue jeans.
Total: 3

PREP
[x] You love The OC
[ ] You have a tiny dog.
[x] Your usual outfits consist of bright or cheery colors
[ ] You LOVE buying shoes
[x] You shop at AE, HOLLISTER, A&F
[x] You love/like to shop
[ ] You like jeans.
[ ] You like Paris Hilton
[ ] Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
[ ] You wear big sunglasses
Total: 4

ATHLETIC
[ ] You watch the Super Bowl
[x] You own track shoes or other sports related shoes.
[ ] You collect your jerseys.
[x] You have/have had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[ ] You have/had posters or plaques of famous athletes.
[ ] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment.
[x] You have a space in your room for awards and/or plaques.
[ ] You have a large amount of medals.
[ ] You belong/belonged to a school team.
[ ] You are going/have gone to a sports summer camp.
[ ] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey.
[ ] You are/were on a select team
Total: 3

i knew it la.. but i really AM an emo kid anyways lol :)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

been pissed off and upset since yesterday morning till now.
lets just say that i had a horrible presentation, and have to make various changes to my thesis.

why i am so mad is cos i was basically done with my thesis already and BEGINNING to taste freedom till it got snatched away from me.

have not touched anything as yet.. will force myself to work on it tmr. which means reading more articles and editting.

yeah so feedback is supposed to help improve the thesis and help me get better grades. still, i wish i didnt have to re-visit it.

Friday, December 12, 2008

DISAPPOINTMENT.

ben and jerry's here i come.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

im just a bundle of emotions.. swinging from happy to crappy..

dont feel so good.

thinking about many, many things.

i should just go sleep so i wont think anymore.

Monday, December 01, 2008

dear mom,

sometimes it feels like the only reason why im studying is so that you and dad wont lose face.

i hate that you're always pressurizing me non-stop.

cant you see that i am so fucking burnt out. the last thing i wanna do is think about masters now. i just wanna fucking finish my thesis and TAKE A WELL DESERVED GOD DAMNED FUCKING BREAK.

is that so hard to ask for?

can you just lay off me FOR ONE GOD DAMN DAY?

JUST ONE FUCKING DAY?

i cant fucking breathe.

im so sick of all this competitive shit. sick of this fucked up education system.

if you're not in a certain uni, you dont have a certain level of education, you are worthless. or at least thats what you've been driving into me every damn time.

which is why now i set such high standards for myself and whenever i fail i feel so fucking disappointed.

you say you're supportive of everything that i do.

FUCK THAT OK. FUCK THAT.

what matters more is your face. how 'smart' i am so you can show off to everyone. that im on par or smarter than my cousins, your colleagues friends, your students etc etc.

EVERY GOD DAMN PERSON THAT YOU KNOW.

WELL FUCK THIS OK.

IM TIRED.

IM FED UP.

AND ONE DAY I WILL HAVE THE COURAGE TO TELL THIS TO YOUR FACE.