sometimes i just really wanna slap myself, give myself a wake up call..
tell myself to stop looking at everything so negatively..
stop being so depressed..
unless i learn to be happy with myself, with what i already have, will i truly experience joy in life.. for you can only learn to love others after you have learnt to love yourself..
im sorry for being so emo and philosophical at 2am in the morning.. the mood just hit me..
im feeling kinda wistful now.. looking back on all those times i spent grumbling and being unhappy when that effort could have been put to much better use by actually doing something good for myself.. and stop wallowing in self-pity..
i really must stop being such a pessimist. i think what 'the secret' says has some truth in it.. if you think negatively, you're gonna attract negative events into your life. but if you wake up on a monday morning and tell yourself it's gonna be a great day, and believe it, it will be.
it's a strange time for change.
but it's a start.