sick cycle carousel

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

this whole sem, ill have morning lessons at 9am everyday, excluding monday and weekends. its only beginning to sink in now.

feeling really crappy and cranky at the moment, cos didnt sleep well. stupid movie "halloween" kept me up all night. all the gruesome murder scenes kept replaying in my head everytime i shut my eyes.

horrible, horrible, show.

why oh why do i keep torturing myself like this?

tuesdays are the worst of all, cos i have lessons in the morning and then at night. so its to sch and back twice in a day. and as u probably know i take friggin long just to get "home". no, i do not consider my current residence as home.

i wanna go home.
and i want my holidaysssss. 1 week is not a holiday.

Monday, October 29, 2007

Saturday, October 27, 2007

photos up on friendster and facebook! lazy to upload here as well, so here's the link:

http://www.friendster.com/photos/6407193

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

excuse the very poor quality, amateurish video taken from my phone. well thats east coast park. the first video i did, tried to add some commentary to it but it just turned out weird. so ended up with this.

couldnt film myself either, cos was having a hard time keeping my hair off my face (the wind was blowing non stop in HUGE gusts), which explains the background noises and jerky movements. lol.

i went at a good time though, hardly anyone around and it was hide tide and not too sunny (at least where i sat). attempted to reflect but just wasnt in the mood. nevertheless, ill be back now that i know how to get there, and perhaps get a better vid next time round.

Monday, October 22, 2007

another emo picture, photoshopped with a vintage feel.

took me quite some time to do, but i love it! :)

got bored, so decided to upload some yummy pics from my phone.
ok, im obviously spending wayyy to much on food.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

wtf happened to avril lavinge?
reminds me of marilyn manson :( the song's still good though.

today basically im just gonna waste the day away, cooped up at home with my beloved cleo mag for company. supposed to go east coast park since its relatively near my area? but simply too lazy to walk and go explore.. haha.. next wk, next wk...

yesterday, also wasted the day away expect went tampines library to borrow some novels, have dinner and walk around..

the day before read comics at home and spent hours online..

how terribly unproductive.

but whatever, i deserve this.

well i do wanna go for some shopping too, but my mood changes like the weather and i dont wanna make appointments with pple only to back out again last min.

nevertheless, meeting gen and joanna next wk, hopefully steph and shirley too :)

book me pple! get my outta the house! heh.

right, back to slacking.

Friday, October 19, 2007

i'd always thought i'd feel instantly joyful/elated/relieved/a combination of all the moment my pen hit the table as i finished off my last exam for this sem.

well that really wasnt the case.

this morning, i woke up bright and early and the first thing that came to my mind was: "ok so what do i have to study today?"

and then in a moment i realized, "nothing". and subsequently i felt so weird after that.

and yesterday while i was out, i couldn't shrug off that feeling that i shouldnt be out, i should be at home doing my work. i actually felt guilty.. for nothing!

i guess this means that i've literally worked my ass off this sem, so much so that i cannot allow myself to relax, as much as i try to or want to. cos for 2 months+ i've always had something to do, something to complete..

i sure hope this feeling wears off soon. post-exam stress, i'd say.

and when i finally have the time to watch tv (after refraining for 2weeks) there are absolutely no good shows on cable. therefore.....

to-do list
1) rent dvds to watch
2) borrow books from library
3) catch up with friends
4) shopping
5) movies (any good ones coming up?)

its a skimpy list but what do u expect? i've only got about a week of hols and its back to sch again.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

u know my mum always tells me dont take the lift on exam days in case it breaks down? ok i thought she was overly paranoid. well guess what? the lift broke down today while i was inside it!

but but BUT

1) i had just come back from sch AFTER my exam
2) it didnt exactly break down, more like stalled and power shut off
3) i WAS able to get out

ok lemme explain. cos before me there was this whole group of sec sch kids, about 8-9 of them, i cant remember how many, who ALL got into the lift. and obviously cos there wasnt space, i let them go up first.

well the lift at my flat here is really small, and it can only take 8 pple max and even then with 5 pple and it's very full already. so all those kids went up at once. the lift came back down for me and i got in and pressed "13" (my floor is the 14th). the lift went up and then stopped at level 5. the door didnt automatically open so i did cos i assumed someone was getting in from that floor. but there was no one. so i thought "hmm thats weird.. maybe they decided to take the stairs or something" and proceeded to close the lift door.

and then the lift just stalled there and didnt move. u know the sound of a power generator dying out? yeah thats the noise it started to make and then the lights began to flicker.

so i was like OMG OMG OMG *panics* and pressed the "door open" button and THANK GOD it opened!!!!! so i climbed all the way from the 5th floor up to the 14th. normally if wouldnt have been so bad but i just had a morning paper and was so tired. so by the time i climbed all the way up i was half dead.

now im too scared to take the lift and i wonder if anyone got trapped it in after me? stupid, inconsiderable kids. its cos of them the lift got screwy. just my luck to come across these kind of pple.

so i have another exam tmr.. gotta go study 4 it now though thats the very last thing i wanna do.. so sick of this.. today wrote 3 essays and my whole hand is numb.. it hurts to type.. hurts to move.. argh..

*grumble grumble*

Saturday, October 13, 2007

i am obviously not studying. oh god i need to get thru the week. i need my breakkkkkkkkk

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

this is sorta a continuation of the previous post in the afternoon. so i went exploring around the neighbourhood a bit, and so far have discovered that i can travel to bugis, tampines, tanah merah, marine parade and city hall with relative ease. BUT thats abt it. no other way for me to get to town except take train down. bus ride will be too long. and dont even talk about getting to sch. i have yet to discover the fastest route. bedok central has a wide variety of fast food outlets. there's burger king, kfc, macs, pizza hut and long john silver's. takes me about 5 mins to get there by bus.

hmmm what else?

ok so am surrounded by boxes. hopefully can move back to serangoon by january. my dad tells me not to go back to the house (serangoon) cos ill just die since everything's all hacked up. renovation works began on monday. faster! faster!

i didnt do any studying today, so tmr its back to work. 3 more exams to go...

i am back in action and online again after err... 4 days? or thereabouts. *hugs com* lol.

well so yesterday had my first exam for this sem. not bad! except for one short answer question which i totally screwed up. nevertheless should do fine :)

thankfully, next paper is on monday. so i can finally take a break and adjust to my new living surroundings. YES i am at bedok now. been there since sat night. still not used to it....... but getting there.

ok will blog more about it next time if im in the mood.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

ok this is the very very last post b4 my internet connection gets cut off for a few days. just had a really strong urge to blog.

based on all thats been happening lately, i realise that although its true that no man is an island and we all need to depend on each other, there are many points in life where u just gotta go it alone cos perhaps, those people that you've always depended on cant seem to hold u up at the moment..

and its then u either make it thru by yourself or u die trying.

right now i guess i could say im struggling.. neither dead nor alive, just somewhere in between.

leaning... and falling...

Friday, October 05, 2007

all these years and they're still hot! bringing good, quality pop music too! heh.

i will be on haitus for a few days till the internet gets installed in the flat. i will miss u, computer! :(

Thursday, October 04, 2007

just finished off my last assignment. 30 pages in all. printer ran out of ink -_-

now i can finally start studying for my exams.

moving house this sat.
first exam this coming monday.

hip, hip, hooray.

Tuesday, October 02, 2007

i am still sick..
throat doesnt hurt as bad but my flu seems to have gotten alot worse.. sneezing and sniffling non stop. and i mean NON STOP. which irritates my throat and the whole cycle starts again...

arghh.
quite pissed off with myself, cos i set a target regarding my work and how much i should have finished by now.. which obviously has not been met.. nevertheless am struggling to work in this sick state.. takes ages just to get anything done though mid way through sneezing and typing.

guess all the constant stress i've been under the past 1 month+ has finally taken its toll on me.. thank god its the exam break & all assignments are done except for one.. cant imagine going to sch like this let alone doing a presentation..

Monday, October 01, 2007

after 3 days of rest and no work, i intended to get started again today, only to fall sick with body aches, sore throat and flu.

the whole year i havent been sick once and i just had to be now.

great.