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Friday, June 29, 2007

so i cut my hair. and i didnt think the reaction would be tt drastic.. according to everyone who's seen it so far i look really different! i can be standing right in front of someone i know and they'd just look right past me **

* audrey ng! i was at orchard mrt and u zoomed right past me b4 i could call ur name. i was standing right in front of u! -faints- but ill give u the benefit of the doubt since u were rushing off :D

* also saw my classmate while i was going down the escalator & he was going up. so i stuck out my hand and waved right in his face and he didnt notice.. only after like 10 secs of staring blankly -_-



i miss my looooong straight hair!!!

-sobs-

for the benefit of those who havent seen it yet, the new hairstyle is much, much shorter, parted at the side, extremely layered all over (4 diff types of layering styles according 2 the hairdresser.. dont ask), and curly!

YES curly.

i didnt intend 4 it to turn out tt way but oh wells.. whats done is done. there is no indication whatsoever tt i'd previously rebonded it :(

was thinking of putting up a pic here, but tried unsuccessfully 2 take a nice one so never mind!


anyway i have been out everyday for the past few days so i think i shall stay at home this weekend.

6 times to orchard rd in less than 2wks. okay i missed going town but i think im overdoing it -_-

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

i love:

1) holidays
2) sleeping in when its raining
3) reading marvel comics (wolverine is hot)
4) wasting time
5) Great Singapore Sale
6) watching loads of tv
7) FOOOOOOOOOOOD (refer to pic)



from left to right: black pepper chicken chop; cafe galilee oreo cheesecake; cafe galilee fish & chips; ice cream & coffee; grilled salmon; blueberry cheesecake; brownie & borders signature ice lemon tea; wanton mee; japanese omelette & takopachi octopus balls; fisherman's warf atlantic cod & chips; orange julius original hotdog; shirley temple; coffee bean pure chocolate drink.

PHEW! what a mouth full. too many pics so tried to squeeze everything together lols. yum yum. more to come~!!

things to do over the hols:

1) zara sale
2) haircut
3) run
4) read
5) basic theory driving test (read up)
6) organize timetable
7) pack cupboard & clear out clothes
8) cook (yes seriously)

pathetic 2 weeks only.. *sobs* :(

Sunday, June 24, 2007

our song is the slamming screen door,
sneaking out late, tapping on your window
when you're on the phone and you talk real slow
cause it's late and your mama don't know
our song is the way you laugh
the first date "man, i didn't kiss her, but i should have"
and when i got home...before i said amen
asking god if he could play it again

Friday, June 22, 2007

i heard nothing but our footsteps echoing across the ground
the crickets and the traffic in the distance
i wanted to stay in that moment forever
just as much as i wanted it to end
time felt meaningless
the hours were empty
as i was inside
i crossed over to the other side
i could go no further
perhaps i never wanted to
i wished you cared less
and i wished she was less than perfect

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god can strike me down tmr and curse me to hell for iternity but i need to write this down, i need to say this out. i hope it doesnt scare you all away.

i have never in my life ever hated someone this much, yet envied them to the point of insanity. i am not kidding.

and i seriously, genuinely wish she would die. thats how much i fucking hate her. and no matter how hard i try to block it all out, to erase everything from my mind, it all comes back.. and i cant forgive myself. i cant forgive myself for all this hatred inside of me.

and you know whats the funniest thing? she doesnt even know i exist. perhaps its all for the best cos i swear i would kill her, all because she has what i can never have.

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my 3rd time updating in one night. its 3.30am now. anyway. i am feeling better. 'get over it', you said. i will.. i want to..

Thursday, June 14, 2007

if only there was a 'pause' button that worked in real life.. now would be the best time for me to press it. so many things are just happening all at once and its beyond my control..

sure i can deal with one issue at a time, but not 3-4 at one go. notice i used the word issue, not problem. cos i guess they arnt really problems.

sometimes i feel as if im growing up faster than i should be. and i dont wanna grow up.. i wanna be that naive and innocent kid that i once was.. i dont want to see what the world's really like. things are being presented to me so fast, so quickly.. and i find myself having to deal with them the way a rational adult should.

and then i stop and i question.. wait.. im 20 years old.. yet i dont feel i've matured enough to handle stuff.

life itself scares me. each day we're just getting older.. and each hour, each minute, each second that passes us by, its gone.. we can never get it back.

i see people moving on and i wonder if im still stuck here in the same position that i was for years and just not moving.. watching others pass me by.

they say that when you've found ur comfort zone, u dont wanna move out of it. u dont wanna experiment. u wanna just stay that way. but if that happened, how would one progress? how would one grow? how would one learn?

i am so afraid of making mistakes, so afraid of moving out of that comfort zone i've built that perhaps im just hindering myself.

eventually though it seems that situations force me out into the 'real world'.. they force me to face up to my fears and insecurities whether i like it or not. and thats how it feels like for me at this point.

next year i will be 21 and officially an adult. will i be any different from where i am now? i thought i wasnt scared of the future, but i now realise i am absolutely terrified. cos nothing is ever certain, and in just one moment everything can change.


Do you remember when you were seven,
And the only thing that you wanted to do was show your mum that you could play the piano.
Ten years have passed and the one thing that lasts,
Is that same old song that we played along and made my momma cry.

I miss those days and I miss those ways,
When I got lost in fantasies, in a cartoon land of mysteries,
In a place you won't grow old, in a place you won't feel cold and I'll sing...

Da-da da da-da da, da da-da da da-da, seems I'm lost in my reflection,
Da-da da da-da da, da da-da da da-da, find a star for my direction.
Da-da da da-da da, da da-da da da-da, for the little girl inside,
Who won't just hide, don't let me see mistakes and lies,
Let me keep my faith and innocent eyes.

Do you remember when you were fifteen,
And the kids at school called you a fool coz you took the chance to dream.
In the time that's passed and the one thing that lasts,
Is that same old song that we played along and made my daddy cry.

I miss those days and I miss those ways,
When I got lost in fantasies, in a cartoon land of mysteries,
In a place you won't grow old, in a place you won't feel cold...

Da-da da da-da da, da da-da da da-da, seems I'm lost in my reflection,
Da-da da da-da da, da da-da da da-da, find a star for my direction.
Da-da da da-da da, da da-da da da-da, for the little girl inside,
Who won't just hide, don't let me see mistakes and lies,
Let me keep my faith and innocent eyes.

Under my feelings, under the skin, under the thoughts from within,
Learning the subtext of the mind, see creation, how we're defined, my innocent eyes.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

i am in denial.

first exam is this fri and although i havent finish studying for it yet, i am still NOT panicking. ok maybe cos its just mcq?

nevertheless..

the next 3 papers are essay and/or short ans qns type. which i absolutely cannot afford to bull shit, and need to know the theories, definitions etc.

omg. omg. omg.

someone please wake me up.

Sunday, June 10, 2007

the friggin best album ever. well, one of the best.

Friday, June 08, 2007

i think my sleeping pattern is seriously screwed up or something.. been trying to get to sleep since 8pm.. YES im serious. its almost 2.30am now? ok perhaps its my fault for attempting to slp so early.

now stuck with a throbbing headache. omg how am i gonna study later?

sorry for the crazy ramblings, am not really thinking straight.

anyways since im feeling oh so random now let me continue with my randomness.

i think some pple are really fortunate but they just dont realise it. so smart, pretty and rich already.. i mean stop friggin complaining.. ur life is almost perfect ok. cmon i'd trade places with u anytime. bah!

and when does a person truly know his/her tolerance level for alcohol? like when u get drunk, do u even know that ur drunk?? i think alcohol shows u a diff side of pple.. it changes u. at least thats my opinion.

can someone watch shrek 3 with me? dont say its a lame show.. after all i watched shrek 1 and 2 already so obviously i need some closure. same goes for POTC right?

i need to stop thinking so much. no wonder cant sleep. keep thinking abt random shits which i have no answers for.

ok back to bed.

Wednesday, June 06, 2007

just like one man's trash is another man's treasure, something can mean a whole lot to you yet mean nothing to another.











i guess it all balances out.

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

sometimes i kinda wish everyone had blogs and blogged regularly.. realise i havent spoken to many pple for a long time.

solution?



go blog visiting!


problem?



never update/dont have one -_-



anyways. its the start of holidays exam break.

exam break = mug like shit

why am i still online at 1.30am?

Monday, June 04, 2007

lazy to put up latest pics, so if interested click HERE

totally shagged out so wont do much updating 4 now.

Friday, June 01, 2007

things to finish:
1) 3105 assignment
2) 3102 assignment
3) 3110 essay
4) 3102 test
5) 3110 lab report


just ONE left !!!!!

note to self: never leave assignments till last minute unless u wanna die of stress.