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Monday, March 19, 2007

someone ~~introduced~~ reintroduced me to www.neopets.com and now im officially addicted.

thanks ah! -_-
i really should be studying. lols.

oh wells. its 1.30am. hello, monday! here we go again ...

What's this life anyway?
What's it to you and me?
What's it to anyone?
Who are we supposed to be?
Make me a storybook
Write me away from here
I need a different now

Where we can wear each other for awhile
I'll lend you my tears if I could borrow a smile
I'll get through tomorrow somehow today
Happy After
Once upon these days

Friday, March 16, 2007

i like walking in the rain, cos no one knows ur crying.

too bad its fucking bright and sunny nowadays.

Monday, March 12, 2007

so i accidentally stumbled upon this website, or more appropriately community known as 'anorexic queen' today.

and im so friggin horrified and disgusted.

its so coincidental cos i've got a presentation on anorexia coming up next month for one of my uni modules. so naturally i browsed thru the site.

omfg.

its got girls writing abt how they "successfully" didnt eat for DAYS.. days with an S ok.. omfg.. and how some just had like carrot sticks and a cup of plain water.. WTF!!!!

and the scary thing is that they're all actually PROUD of themselves.. PROUD everytime they STARVE themselves, everytime they THROW UP.

i understand that weight has always been an issue with us teenagers and young pple but STILL. this is just friggin PUSHING IT.

they're all like encouraging one another, telling each other to "BE STRONG". hello? thats not being strong.

and some of them talk abt not being able to have kids in the future as a result of their periods stopping as if ITS NO BIG DEAL. as if thats a MERE INCONVENIENCE that u gotta deal with in order to lose weight.

i'm scared now thinking abt it. thinking abt all those girls out there who DONT EVEN REALISE what they're doing to themselves.

and im thankful that at least IM SMART ENOUGH to know the difference between losing weight healthily and becoming anorexic.

anyways im just gonna put the link up here.. but do PROCEED WITH CAUTION because much of the stuff written there is seriously... disturbing.

http://community.livejournal.com/anorexicqueen

Labels: WTF

Sunday, March 11, 2007

to all those who actually remembered, and for all the well wishes,

THANK U LOADS!!!

appreciate it :)

on a side note, will someone please date me for the movie 300? i really, really wanna watch it! interested parties feel free to contact me!

shake it, baby.

Friday, March 09, 2007

just a song i heard on american idol that touched me.

Share my life, take me for what i am
Cause i'll never change all my colours for you
Take my love, i'll never ask for too much
Just all that you are and everything that you do

I don't really need to look very much further
I don't want to have to go where you don't follow
I won't hold it back again, this passion inside
Can't run from myself
There's nowhere to hide

Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must i imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If i don't have you

You see through, right to the heart of me
You break down my walls
with the strength of your love
I never knew love like i've known it with you
Will a memory survive, one i can hold on to?

Don't make me close one more door
I don't wanna hurt anymore
Stay in my arms if you dare
Or must i imagine you there
Don't walk away from me
I have nothing, nothing, nothing
If i don't have you

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

OMG!!!!! NEW ALBUM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first day back in sch and im so awfully sick and stressed already!

i cant believe i actually wanted to go back. sure was enjoying myself in my little world of shopping, where days consisted of lazing around at home, waking up late and going out with friends.

then its back to sch and i feel like i've been thrown into the sea of reality again and tossed around. u start seeing the assignment dates, the projects u gotta complete, the tests u gotta sit for, the textbooks u gotta buy, the timetables u gotta sort out..

OMFG.

please can i just hide under a rock until this all passes over?

probably the only good thing that came out of this is that i most definitely will not have the time to go on impulsive shopping sprees i.e. save tons of money. ok maybe not tons but a hell lot more than im saving now (which is ZERO)!!

i intended to start reading up today, being the 'optimistic' girl that i am, but obviously that did not happen as im online now. ok its not my fault the textbooks were sold out. and i have a horrible headache.

I WANT MY HOLIDAYS BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*looks forward to sunday with slight apprehension*

Labels: back to sch

Tuesday, March 06, 2007

updated to-do list

1) shopping
-> ~~vivocity with gen~~ DONE
-> ~~have YET to buy a CD~~ BOUGHT
-> ~~still looking for a nice skirt~~ FOUND
-> meeting lester & audrey on thurs
-> meeting gen & audrey next wk; date to be confirmed

2) movies
-> ~~aborted~~
-> ~~reason: no money~~
-> watch 300

3) running
-> aborted
-> reason: ~~PMS~~ sch is starting!

4) prepare for start of sch ~~next wk~~ this wk
-> ~~pack bag~~
-> ~~organise timetable~~
-> purchase textbooks

Saturday, March 03, 2007

sometimes i feel as if we exist on this world only to compete with one another.

Friday, March 02, 2007

i cannot believe its march already. i guess i should be looking forward to my birthday, but it doesnt seem to matter. its as if with every year, this 'special' occasion starts to lose its significance.

updated to-do list

1) shopping
-> vivocity with gen tmr
-> have YET to buy a CD
-> still looking for a nice skirt

2) ~~movies~~
-> aborted
-> reason: no money

3) ~~running~~
-> aborted
-> reason: PMS

4) prepare for start of sch next wk
-> pack bag
-> organise timetable
-> purchase textbooks

Labels: march