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Tuesday, January 30, 2007

moment of joyous elation - JUST ONE MORE ASSIGNMENT TO GO!!

*dances around*

1) ~~PY2106 essay~~
2) ~~PY2101 lab report~~
3) ~~PY2111 lab report + power pt presentation~~
4) PY3101 research ethics proposal (deadline postphoned to 7th feb.. PHEW!)

Labels: relief and happiness

Sunday, January 28, 2007

i hope to someday be your poster girl.

yeah.. maybe in my next life.
or the next.

UPDATES
1) ~~PY2106 essay~~
2) ~~PY2101 lab report~~
3) PY2111 lab report + power pt presentation
2) PY3101 research ethics proposal (deadline postphoned to 7th feb.. PHEW!)

Friday, January 26, 2007

honeydew coffeebean.
"kissing" a philosophy book.
rose and jasmin body lotion.
hobbits and exotic squids.

interesting.

Thursday, January 25, 2007

i just want things to get better.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

UPDATE ...

ok so i finished my first assignment at 3am last night. somehow didnt really feel a sense of accomplishment. must have been too tired already.

just edited it and printed out.

currently debating which assignment to do next.

TO DO LIST

~~1) PY2106 essay~~
2) PY3101 research ethics proposal
3) PY2101 lab report
4) PY2111 lab report + power pt presentation

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

it is 2am in the morning and im still working on my assignment. the essay one. been at it since 11 plus. soooo terribly tired but i promised myself i would finish it, if not no sleeping.

gawdddddddd. there's still so much left to do. which is why i wanna clear one assignment at the time so i can focus on the next tmr.

wait a minute - technically it is tmr already. argh whatever.

as u can see my sanity is being affecting by late night, last minute work. granted, this isnt due till the 30th but no way am i gonna be able to complete everything in time if i dont start working now.

so back to typing.

ill keep u guys posted on my progress.

Monday, January 22, 2007

i am feeling so listless and unmotivated.

number of assignments due: 4
deadline: end of january

number i've started on: 0

ok, thats if you dont count reading my textbook, so i can attempt one of the assignments, an essay question.

SIGHHHH.

and what worries me most?
im not even panicking.

Sunday, January 21, 2007

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit,
and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to ~~always~~ be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot,
workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waiting,
at times debating,
Telling you that I've had it ~~with you and~~ your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

i deleted a whole portion of this entry. hope no one saw it.

after crying for about an hour and cursing just about everyone and everything, i realise something.

i dont care what anyone thinks anymore.

i cannot, and will never be able to please everyone.

so if you dont like me, fine.

im not gonna think about it anymore.

Monday, January 15, 2007

Chanced upon this test..
Those parts that i agree with are in bold.

Damn! Why so inaccurate ah? lol. nevertheless...

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy:

Your propensity for monogamy is medium.
In general, you prefer to have only one love interest.
But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long!
There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering.

Experience Level:

Your experience level is high.
You've loved, lost, and loved again.
You have had a wide range of love experiences.
And when the real thing comes along, you know it!

Dominance:

Your dominance is medium.
You tend to be the one with more power.
You aren't a total control freak in relationships..
But of course you don't mind getting you way!

Cynicism:

Your cynicism is low.
You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance.
No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter.
You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate.
And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon.

Independence:

Your independence is low.
This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships..
It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life.
In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

The Five Variable Love Test

In contrast, this quiz is 99% accurate! so i couldn't be bothered to bold. haha...

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen
Peacemaker, first to end a fight
Good at thinking up creative dates
Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily
Going with your gut instead of your head
Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault
Good at recognizing patterns in relationships
Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count
Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love
Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow
Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind
Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

Are You Right Brained or Left Brained in Love?

Friday, January 12, 2007

whats up with the weather nowadays?

one moment its scalding hot, and the next it rains practically non-stop the entire day.

bah!

nevertheless, god has been kind to me. yesterday was good. and today.. well i stayed at home and avoided the heavy downpour. no sch.

and..
AND...

i did some studying.
notice the emphasis on 'some'.

im trying hard to stay optimistic.

Thursday, January 11, 2007

meaningful, good advice ....

do read if u have the patience :)

Each one of us are like small tiny little sailboats in the big wide ocean of human relationships.
At some point in our life, after probably suriving some terrible stormy relationships, we get tired and would like to find a safe habour to take refuge. Some may find this habour early in their life, some later, some not at all, either by choice or otherwise.

And every time we find a new habour, some take one look and sail on in search of a better one, but some would stay behind longer. Initially, everything on the island would be hunky dory, i.e., new, exciting, fun and u simply love every minute of it. In some cases, it is just too good to believe its true. In this new found place u call home, u work hard to know the place, the people behind it, the weather, the enviroment and even may even begin to think u never want to leave this place ever again.

But unfortunately, over time, u slowly begin to realise that thismay not be an ideal place to rest after all (perhaps due to many varied reasonssuch as; can't get along with the other people already living on the island, the very unpredictable weather of e island, the hash living conditions u keep having to put up with, etc. etc. etc.). You feel as if somehow, the island and safe habour has changed over time, and is now no longer the one it used to be when u first arrived... What would u do? or what should u do?

Some people, being too comfortable where they are, simply put up with it, hoping that one day things will change for the better. Some people put up with it simply becos of the great fear of getting hurt again back in the open ocean of uncertainty. But there are also some who, after trying their level best to fit in, would pick up their sail and leave this otherwise comfortable habour they once called home and set sail again into the unknown to find the place they initially started out looking for...

I do not believe I could tell you which is the best path to follow given your situation and experiences. You and only u yourself can decide the path u wish to take and will have to live through that path.

For those who found the courage to pick up their tiny little sailboats and set sail again into the open ocean, may you find the land u would eventually call home now that u leave the comfort of that once so familiar seashore.

And while u are out there; Believe in yourself and NEVER look back as your future may lie far far beyond that horizon u were once so used to. Remind yourself that u may fail if u try, but u will NEVER succeed if u don't...

Seek, and u shall find...

i havent been blogging for awhile again, due to the simple reason tt there is NOTHING to blog abt.

i guess now its appropriate to start panicking. this month, i either have an assignment due or a test every week.

while i just discovered tt my exams will be over b4 chinese new yr, they'll all be one after another with no breaks in between.

so which is better - more money or better results?

well i dont have a choice now that the exam timetable is out.

life just revolves around sch.

ok i shall stop blogging and attempt to listen to my teacher.

current new yr's resolution: pay attention in class and stop skipping lessons.

Friday, January 05, 2007

i wish you'd just said "no"...

but wishes don't always come true.

Tuesday, January 02, 2007

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

omg i miss blogging so much.

dunno how many days have passed since. now my internet is finally 90% in working condition. shall vouch never to take my 'high speed' connection forgranted again.

i cant really think of any new yr's resolutions yet. so far havent been able to keep to any in the past.

so why start now?

hmms.

so yesterday and today was/is pretty uneventful.

i dont feel any different. was in town yesterday for awhile, and left around 6pm, attempting 2 beat the human traffic only 2 discover that the mrt was rather empty.

town was crowded though, as usual.

i dont wanna go back to sch.
i dont want the holidays to end.

and

i hope someone likes the present.