i dont understand why its so hard for me to be happy.
as in, why cant i be happier longer?
why is it whenever im happy, ill always have the fear of it being taken away from me soon?
and it always, always happens.
so i dont get the chance to stay that way for long.
im rambling.
went running again this evening. shaved off 10mins of running time.. im improving!
thereafter, went to cook instant noodles.
*watches as effort goes down the drain*
damn.
next time, i will only have dinner AFTER i get back from running.
but what if i collapse due to lack of energy?
ok, enough already joanne.
im gonna pretend its ok. i didnt see what i saw.
i didnt.
i didnt.
i didnt.
i wanna press backspace and erase it.