for the past few days i've just been so busy i've hardly had time to breathe...
the workload keeps piling and piling..

but i have no one to blame but myself coz i let it accumilate..

so now im stuck with tons of deadlines to meet..

this sucks.

as a result of all this shit im taking it out on others.. it isnt right. i tried retail therapy as a stress reliever but what was so fucked up was that everything was so expensive i couldnt bear to part with the money.. so eventually i went home empty handed and mad at myself..

well i guess i couldnt really 'concentrate'.. kept thinking of all the work i'd have to get done once i got home..

am preparing myself for long hours of slogging. most of the assignments now are half done or havent even been touched yet.. im jumping from one to another coz i just cant afford to concentrate on one when so many are due at the same time... and i hate that cos i like to do things one at a time...

oh god look at me.. im rambling on and on... making no sense at all..
and successfully stressing myself out even further..

bear with me for being so self centered..

someone is pissed off with me right now.. and the feeling ain't good. i so wanna keep the peace. its my own wrong doing.. but i know its long reached the point where its 'sorry no cure'.. what can i do but just let things cool down.. hopefully it'll all work out in the end...

all these commitments are driving me nuts.. i know better now not to make promises cos at the rate im going ill probably not be able to keep them.. and that will only disappoint pple even more..

i dislike the new sch system. its supposed to give us more time to study but in fact its only made things worse.. im sure my classmates will agree with me.. i prefer the old system when its 2 modules in 2 months and then exams.. now its like 4 modules in 4 months then exams.. i mean too much time to study aint good either cos u tend to procrastinate. and even if you've studied by the time the exams come you've forgotten everything. in order to prevent this u gotta constantly revise ur work.. but how do u do that when u got so many assignments and so many modules?

i envy those pple with diplomas coz they get exempted from a lot of modules.. so while im doing 4 they only do 2..

arghhh.

well i gotta get back to my work now.. its gonna be a long day tmr.