I don't think God will ever forgive me for what i'm abt to do.
I know they say God is all forgiving, and as long as you are sorry and repent you'll be forgiven.
But i have stopped praying. I've tried. I really have. But i can't. The prayers won't come. I'm just consumed by guilt all the time... and occasionally regret.
The hard truth hasn't sunk it yet. I'm not really to face it. Not at all. But to put it crudely, I've gotta get over and done with it asap. I cannot afford to wait any longer. Tonight already confirmed it.
I am so scared.
SO FUCKING SCARED.
I brought it upon myself. so now i must pay.
that's what makes it suck even more.
it's hard to be brave.
help me.
please.