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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

my demise

sometimes opportunities are staring right in front of us in our faces, yet we fail to seize them.

i had a choice, and i made the wrong decision.

so now i have to pay.
and i have no one to blame but myself.

i'm sorry i keep letting u down.

it's too late to regret.

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

hear me

You gotta be out there
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting

Cause there are these nights
whenI sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me

I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me

Can you hear me?
Hear me

I used to be scared
of letting someone in
But it gets so lonely
Being on my own
No one to talk to
And no one to hold me
I'm not always strong
Oh, I need you here
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me

I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me

I'm restless and wild
I fall, but I try
I need someone to understand
Can you hear me?

I'm lost in my thoughts
And baby I'm far
For all that I've got
Can you hear me?

- kelly clarkson: hear me -

Sunday, May 28, 2006

reality check

all the while when i'd been whining abt how dreadful and sickening my life was, i never thought that somewhere out there, someone was going through the exact same thing.

and the funny thing is this person is, or more appropriately was my friend but ever since we graduated from jc obviously u lose contact with those of whom u weren't even close to to begin with in the first place.

that was a mouthful.
but u get the point, right?

so yeah. never before could i emphathize with another individual so much.

reality check.

sure helps knowing ur not alone.

i know someday it'll be okay.

Friday, May 26, 2006

iris.

i haven't been blogging, i know.

sorry..
just not much inspiration nowadays.

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cuz I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cuz sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah, you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cuz I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

i HATE mood swings.

Friday, May 19, 2006

my favourite tv ad

love! <3

Thursday, May 18, 2006

pondering...

hmm.

i realise all my recent entries r either dumb or damn emo.

this has gotta stop. so from now on, i will try not 2 blog unless i've got something worth writing abt.

which is probably highly unlikely, since now my life consists of mostly wake up -> go to sch -> eat -> slp.

speaking of which, i think im gonna fail my assignment. that's what happens when u dont listen in class.

saw this on a badge:
"good girls are the bad girls that don't get caught"

i suppose im a bad girl now. then again, i never was a good girl either.

so have it your way.

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

turning pt

face it mummy,
i'm growing up.

wait, i have grown up.

i'm not your little girl anymore. shouldn't it be time 4 me 2 make my own choices & my own decisions?

Some say we're never meant to grow up
I'm sure they never knew enough
I know the pressures won't go away
It's too late

Find out the difference somehow
It's too late to even have faith
Don't think things will ever change
You must be dreaming

Think before you make up your mind
You don't seem to realize
I can do this on my own
And if I fall I'll take it all
It's so easy after all

Believe me 'cause now's the time to try
Don't wait, the chance will pass you by
Time's up to figure it out
You can't say it's too late

Seems like everything we knew
Turned out were never even true
Don't trust, things will never change
You must be dreaming

Think before you make up your mind
You don't seem to realize
I can do this on my own
And if I fall I'll take it all
It's so easy after all

Some say we're better off without
Knowing what life is all about
I'm sure they'll never realize the way
It's too late

Somehow it's different everyday
In some ways it never fades away
Seems like it's never gonna change
I must be dreaming

Think before you make up your mind
You don't seem to realize
I can do this on my own
And if I fall I'll take it all
It's so easy after all

Believe me, it's alright
It's so easy after all
Believe me, it's alright
It's so easy after all

- Sum 41: Some say -

that said,
how things have changed over the past yr.

at this point last yr, i took a step that i've never regretted.

for the first time.

so im proud of myself, even if u arn't.

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

mood swings

its funny how things can go from really bad to really good and consequently affect ur mood greatly.

earlier on i was

then i was

and now im

...so gd night! :P

p.s yep, i know this entry is really irrelevant.

Sunday, May 14, 2006

russell peters on sri lankans, chinese & indians

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA~!!!!!!!

OMG u gotta see this shit..

but no offence or anything.. i just found it damn funny.

Saturday, May 13, 2006

whatever.

i'm moody, pissed off and stressed.

for no reason at all.

but maybe i should be. this wasn't the way i planned it.

bye.

Monday, May 08, 2006

my life online + chris daughtry

1. log on to MSN, chat with friends
2. check my e-mail
3. visit friends blogs & tag
4. update this blog
5. surf the net for random sites
6. play solitaire
7. download songs
8. play online games
9. find pple on friendster
10. do research for uni assignments

..and basically, that's a 10 step description of my life online.

btw, i think chris daughtry from american idol absolutely KICKS ASS! whoot! check out the vid :)

Thursday, May 04, 2006

uni life

busy, busy, busy.

yes, i have started schooling already..its in a private uni. doing psychology. so far so gd.

having problems trying 2 pick up the pace again after slacking 4 god knows how long. just as well..cant afford 2 do anymore shopping. literally wiped out more than half of my bank account and CNY savings.

i wonder once everyone starts uni in aug, whether we're all gonna lose contact with one another eventually? i guess only time will tell.

i don't suppose i've been accepted into any of the 3 local unis i applied for. that's ok.. im happy that at least i've been given the opportunity 2 do what i like 4 once. this will probably make studying a whole lot easier.

"life is short - live each day as if it were your last."