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Sunday, April 30, 2006

wake me up when september ends

are you feeling this?

Friday, April 28, 2006

untitled

everyone seems 2b reminising abt life again, so ill take my shot.

what's life 2 me now at the (insignificant) age of 19?

pretty pointless really.

see all the guys going NS, and the girls getting jobs. then u have the in betweens like me, the wanders, the lost souls.. who don't really know where the're going. going with the flow perhaps?

aaah. im like so whatever now. what a change from the past, when i actually gave a damn. nope, this ain't a negative, 'i hate life' entry.

more of a revealation 4 me - i care less. so is that gd or bad? i've always been a worrier. go figure.

maybe its just that there's less in life 4 me 2 care abt at the moment. and b4 u pple start accusing me of dumping my friends.. no of coz i dont mean that.

PRIORITISING is key. seem 2b going thru a phrase of 'self discovery'.. given that i have so much time 2 think abt random crap like this nowadays.

2day i learnt a lesson:
'if it ain't broke, don't fix it.'

some things are better just left alone.

hmmmm.... yeah thats it i guess.

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

the right guy

an abstract from an e-mail chain letter.. :)

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot.
Who calls you back when you hang up on him.
Who will stay awake just to watch you sleep.
Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.
Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.
Who holds your hand in front of his friends.
Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you.
Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."

...have you found him yet?

Sunday, April 23, 2006

to all those doing their NS now,

my deepest, greatest condolences.

i know u guys r suffering.. but HANG IN THERE!!!

seriously, you'll survive...
AND get killer abs in the process.

Saturday, April 22, 2006

love, me

I read a note my grandma wrote
Back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat
And he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long long time ago
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none
But I loved your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were
Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, me

I read those words just hours before
My grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church
When me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I'd never seen him cry
All my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be
But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Till I see you again
I'll be loving you
Love, me

Friday, April 21, 2006

stop. the. tears.

this isn't goodbye.

Thursday, April 20, 2006

reminiscence

pple walking in and out of my life.. leaving footprints on my heart.

sigh.

feel so sad just thinking abt it.

everyone's got their own lives 2 lead now, and so have i.

whenever i pass by cj, i cant believe i was even a part of that place once though being there has changed my life in many countless ways. and the're not all bad either.

memories........................
i won't forget u.

Monday, April 17, 2006

say it isn't so

i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry.

i know you won't read this. but i really am.

not just sorry 4 now, but 4 everything.

is it really meaningless?

save tonight
and fight the break of dawn
come tomorrow
tomorrow i'll be gone

Monday, April 10, 2006

VENT

u know what i absolutely hate???

when pple try 2 run my life and tell me what 2 do.

i wanna scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

im so fucking sick of my parents. seriously, cant they understand that i NEED SOME SPACE??

i hate this.

its times like these when i really, really wanna run away.

i'm sure you've probably felt this way at some point in ur life too. and u know how frustrating it can get. well, consider yourself lucky. coz i experience this kind of bullshit every freaking damn day.

all this venting is supposed 2 make me feel better, but i only feel worse.

GREAT.

bye.

Monday, April 03, 2006

personality test

betcha didn't know this about me...

i put all those that i agreed with in RED.

Joanne's personality summary

Your personality stands out from the average person's particularly in the areas of:
Your High Curiosity Level
Your High Emotional Reactivity Level

Your Interaction Style:

You scored 10 in the area of extroversion/ introversion, which means that your energy is directed primarily inward, rather than outward. You prefer to have one or two good friends instead of a large group of superficial friends.
Researchers have discovered that extroversion levels come from the sensitivity of a part of the brain called the amygdala. People who are low in Extroversion have a very sensitive amygdala. As a result, you notice things that other people don't notice.

Social patterns:

You are left-brained when it comes to recognizing emotions in other people. When you look at a person's face you focus on what you see on the right. This is a unique way of viewing the world. You are likely to be sensitive to 'micro-expressions' - the tiny movements of the muscles in the face that occur, for example, when someone is telling a lie. Hearing preferences are an interesting exception to this left-right crossover. For example, if two people were talking behind a closed door and you needed to put your ear on the door to hear, you would tend to use your left ear instead of your right.

go do yours at http://www.personality100.com ...unfortunately, it doesnt provide a detailed analysis on your personality for free, but if u answer the questions honestly, the results are pretty accurate.

just thought i'd share with u pple :)

Sunday, April 02, 2006

an immortal?!

i know i said i wouldnt blog but...

whatever.

joanne --
[noun]:

An immortal

'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

...what a total load of bullshit. i don't want 2b an immortal. unless u can promise me a lifetime of happiness. and happiness ONLY. which is obviously impossible.

try it 4 yourself and let me know ur definition.

oh yeah - aud, lester & nana: im happy 2 see all of u again :)
i promise 2 starve myself b4 we eat NYDC again ok?

haha! ;)